Friday, November 23, 2018

Tidak Produktif 😣

Salam guys. Hari ni tiba2 Badik rasa nak luah kekesalan & macam2 lagilah. Okay, Alhamdulillah almost 3 months kerja. First 2 months bahagian lab service which means kerja2 makmal. Memang susah hard core ade shift balik lambat kenkadang rasa nak give up but towards the end of the 2nd month I found myself transform into better person,why? Dulu ade masalah speed utk 1st month sampai kena panggil masuk meeting room jumpa Dr Wong and Cindy 😂 macam ade masalah discipline je lol 😂 tapi diberi peluang & yes, I can do it .I felt satisfied with my hardwork.


But then I need to attend UTM 61st convocation so I applied for leave around 4 days. Lab manager jumpa I & said I want you to train in office. It's up to your mentor to put you in IP or CS. Mula2 rasa happy sebab okay boleh balik office hour. Masuk2 je office, I got nothing to do. Entah rasa macam kena treat betul2 macam budak intern je. Dulu, company ade tawarkan kerja permanent so that's why dlm lab mmg kena treat macam staff, kerja mmg separuh nak mati 😅 dah 2 minggu kerja I hanyalah buat filing guys. Kau rasa?! Sangat tidak produktif. Fyi ni keje yg sepatutnya despatch boy buat. Tapi mentor suruh I buat jadi buatlah dgn redho. Macam mana nak isi monthly report untuk bulan ni sebab rasa macam tak belajar apa2. 5 perkara kot kena isi 😭


Korang mesti kata eh, tak bersyukur ke? Ye tahu kena bersyukur tapi I tak tahan hidup macam ni. Serious rasa macam tak dihargai makanya terdetik perasaan aku nak angkat kaki, nak apply kerja lain. Tolonglah ya Allah murahkan rezekiku. Amin 😭 Waktu ni lah tiba2 tengah sengkek takde duit. Ye hidup Aku mewah dulu tapi tak lah semewah orang yang betul2 Kaya tu. Term nya "berkemampuan" sebab dapat biasiswa JPA & tiap2 bulan Abah mesti masukkan duit. Memang tak pernah pun merasa nak ikat perut waktu zaman study kat UTM. Tengok kawan2 ikat perut makan Maggie adelah. Sekarang dgn allowance yg sikit, Lepas tu rasa macam company tak hargai value Kita, Badik Chan beli Maggie 2 packs guys! Dah berhari dinner maggie 😭 sehari at least habiskan RM 6 makan dekat kantin. Sebab nak jimat ni hujung Bulan sedihnyaaa 😭 my life turns 360 degrees!


Friday, November 16, 2018

Congratulations Badik Chan 🎓🎉💐

Alhamdulillah. All praises to Allah SWT 💕 I've finally made it 😊 To those who have been with me for all the time, thank you very much. May Allah bless you with His countless blessings in Shaa Allah 🤗

4 years journey with blood, sweat & tears has come to an end. Anxiety, pressures, heartache are now memories. UTM Skudai has transformed me into a diligent & independent lady. I learnt to be strong & don't give up no matter what happens.

"It doesn't matter if I am not everyone's cup of tea because some prefer other beverages. Nobody knows me better than the Almighty. It's my creator that I should be trying to please. Let him be the judge. Ignore all the negative vibes from the toxic people 🤗"


Wan Sujaihah Binti Meor Hissan
Bachelor of Science (Biology)
UTM Skudai, Malaysia 

Saturday, September 29, 2018

Fresh graduate & working life 🔬

Salam all! I haven't posted for a while as I'm quite busy with my current life.huhu Actually I'm doing my internship with DNA Laboratories Sdn Bhd in Bangi for 6 months under MTDC graduate employibility  program. So this 6 months is like a probation period. Today marks the 1st month training in general screening lab & so far is okay but still I couldn't run from stress 😂

To be honest, as a fresh graduate who majors in Biosciences I have no experience with medical laboratory. Hence you can expect me with zero knowledge huhu. What I learnt during degree life is just a few basic techniques in molecular biology which involves PCR & gel electrophoresis for 16srRNA. Mostly I learnt theories and lack of lab hands on. I was quite tensed up when I was given SOP & this involves Histology & Pathology oh my god 😂 back in UTM I learnt animal physiology & immunology 😂 yes Allah's knowledge is very very wide.

Everyday here is a learning process. We are required to work from Monday until Saturday (half-day). Everyone here is very hardworking 👍 Since it's a private lab with ISO Quality Management System hence this company has a certain key performance indicators. It's not easy & I could say it's a hardcore training but I won't give up & try to be competent 💪 The environment is very healthy with helpful colleagues and supervisors. One of my colleagues always motivates me. Thank you so much & I'll try to cope well with my lab work journey.

I hope I can grow along with this company together with everyone. I don't know if I will stay but if it's fate maybe there's something good that Allah has set for me. I pray to be strong and could contribute to this ummah 💪 May Allah ease everything for you and for me 💕


Yours sincerely,
Badik Chan 🌟

Friday, July 20, 2018

Duniawi 🙄

Assalamualaikum. Ok lah post kali ni dalam Bahasa Melayu 😬✌ Dah lama tak update blog jadi saja nak tulis~ Harap2 tiada makcik2 bawang akan screenshot & membawang pasal info terkini Badik la ye dok 🙊 Macam la tak tahu perangai sorang2 cenggitu 😏 Tak serik2 nak makan daging kawan sendiri. Entah bila nak sedar pun tak tahulah. Sebelum meninggal or kiamat sila sedarkan diri ya Makcik2 Bawang. Huhu Ni pun peringatan untuk diri sendiri. Kalau sendiri nak buka pekung di dada satgi Kita pun sama ja macam depa tu. Takmo2 No No!! Badik budak baik. Toksoh terpengaruh eh dengan depa 🙊 hehe

Info terkini ; Wan Sujaihah Binti Meor Hissan. Graduan UTM Skudai jurusan Sains Biologi. Sedang mempersiapkan diri untuk memasuki alam pekerjaan. In Shaa Allah akan menjalani latihan industri selama 6 bulan di Bangi di bawah program MTDC MOE. Semoga dipermudahkan segala urusan & diserap masuk oleh industri setelah 6 bulan. Perancangan lain: sementara berkerja ingin memohon guru mrsm (supaya dipanggil interview & mendapat jawatan kerajaan) Masih muda berusia 23 tahun jadi tiada komitmen. Oleh itu, tidak kisah sekiranya ditempatkan di Sabah/Sarawak/sekitar Malaysia 😬 Peluang perlu dicari. Jika ada kemahuan, di situ ada jalan 💪 Menunggu Konvokesyen UTM ke-61 November 2018 🎓🎉 Buat masa ini menjadi Suri rumah yang tidak bertauliah 😂 Belajar memasak dengan Abah. Skill mengemas masih amateur kahakakahak 😝 Bila dah masak penat nak mengemas. Aishhhh perlu persiapkan diri sebelum berkeluarga. Tidak terfikir untuk berkeluarga lagi kerana masih anak Abah yang manja 🙊 Cuma perlu berdoa daripada sekarang sahaja lah ditemukan jodoh dengan orang yang baik 😂 Prioriti buat masa sekarang fokus dengan kerjaya. Jika ada peluang untuk sambung master (mmg dapat pun UTM 😂, yuran mahal gilaa) akan difikirkan. Abah kata dia akan teruskan 1080 kalau adik sambung belajar lagi 😏 Tapi berdasarkan pengalaman serik dah nak belajar. Takpelah ada rezeki in Shaa Allah itu saja 🤗✨


Dah2 tu je. Nanti ade pulak yang melebih2 lepas baca entry baru ni 🙄 ok Byeeee. Assalamualaikum


Badik Chan 😎

Friday, May 25, 2018

People change

Peace be upon you. I find it weird when suddenly people who aren't interested in reading my blog before this would be my silent readers for my latest post 😂 Thank you. In this holy month, I think Allah wanted to show His mercy on me that there are certain people who are curious *solely labelled as bawang* here. I didn't intend to provoke anyone that's why I didn't even post any link to share oh I'm talking trash about others on my latest post! Here read this post! I'm telling a sizzling news about fakers! If you are offended this shows that you are one of the fakers then. Hypothesis is accepted 😂 We are humans, not a saint. Everyone makes mistakes. I know I am not holy. The reason I posted the previous entry is because I wanted to express myself on what I have been through. Ok let me tell you straight, will you be okay enduring yourself doing your fyup without any supports? I bet nobody can handle the stress. Of course you will at least have a friend to cry on but in my case? Do I have any??? *I do have one but the reason I felt sad is because someone who is once closed to me is not the one who I can rely on. It makes me sad why people can change out of sudden 😢 It feels awkward & I was praying a lot before this but it didn't seem alright. The bonds that are meant to be repaired are still hanging without a word. I don't want to hurt myself anymore. I've been reflecting myself a lot too. Maybe I did a lot of sins that's why Allah tested me like this. I felt like a ruthless friend when I couldn't even give advice like praying 5 times a day will be enough as a Muslim. I felt ashamed although I joined Usrah & learned about Tarbiyah I couldn't give dakwah to those who aren't aware about 5 times prayers which is the simplest thing to do as a Muslim. I want us to be able to go to Jannah. It's not that I hate you but silently I'm praying for you. I'm lost & confused. Are you still considering me as your precious friend or actually a friend on name (direct translation from BM 😂 kawan atas nama sahaja, sebab tu saya rasa itu penipuan semata2). I love you but I don't think you love me as I do 😅 I hope everyone can change to be better. Just pray to Allah so that we will be able to be a true Muslim in Shaa Allah 😊

Wednesday, May 23, 2018

Will be graduating soon

Salam. Hi there. I hope nobody will come across this post because I felt like cursing (opsss in this holy month of Ramadan 😀) Yes! I will be graduating soon. Just had my structural biology online test. What's left is final exam *I didn't study yet because yesterday was crazy, submission of spiral bound thesis & guess what after viva which was the 6 days before submission was like hell! I didn't get enough sleep. Got stomach ache 2/3 times went to toilet & flushed everything out leaving my stomach empty and I was fasting 😠. I didn't go back to my own room because I found it disturbing to do all my work there. It was a better choice to be a nomad, haha sorry Tikah & Dila. I slept over at your rooms & had sahur until today. I wasn't planning on going back but I have to because I didn't have my clothes as well as my laundry is getting bigger. I need to set time to wash all the clothes. And I am confused as my exam is starting on 30th May and a sudden change of Kakak Naqibah & she told me I have to attend mukyyam dahili on 25th & 26th OMG I don't know. Everything is too fast and I haven't study for the upcoming exam like seriously?😩😧😥 Why is my life is too pathetic? I guess that I'm easily triggered with petty little things. I was pissed off easily although it's not a big deal. BUT WHY WOULD YOU MAKE ME LIKE THIS? THIS IS ALL YOUR FAULT TO BEGIN WITH SO I'M NOT SO SORRY HAHAHAHAHAA. 4 years friendship in University revealed everyone's dark side which make me feel like puking. I hate to say this but I think most of my friends are fake 😏 Hence, they are not trustworthy only a few which I consider my close ones. Even the one who once closed to me are far away out from my reach and I don't regret it as I felt relieved your true color disgust me. That's why I'm leaving. I don't feel emotional & I don't feel eager to participate in photo session like previous semesters. I feel like please let me finish already and disappear. I don't want to have any involvement with you. I want to live my life freely from negative vibes *ONE OF THE FACTORS WHY I DEACTIVATE TWITTER ACCOUNT* So probably contacting a few people who are NOT FAKE after graduation will do 😊😊😊I hope THE FAKERS are not reading this 😂😂😂If they did, I pray to Allah SWT that they will reflect their behavior as well as taking time to ponder. HAHAHAHAHAH Amin. May the fakers get some light to go to the right path in shaa Allah hehe. So, job hunting? Are you ready??? Good luck dear self!

Thursday, January 25, 2018

Busy life ☢⚠☠

Peace be upon you, readers! Hey I'm back posting new entry for new year. Happy new year although it is kind of late 😂 The last post was in October 2017 after I had my proposal presentation. It was the hardest part I'd encountered and I almost gave up. Hey, there's always a rainbow after rain. Allah has planned something wonderful in the end that's why I am still alive survived from the previous months.

Here I am working in lab for my final year project. May Allah ease everything for me. To be honest I'm tired. Everyday I go to the lab working overtime. I just need to hang in there & I know I can do this in Shaa Allah. Miracle does happen for the last semester. He knows I'm struggling so hard yet he grands me excellent result for semester 7 final examination. I didn't expect much because 4th year life is super duper busy *I studied last minute & my brain hurts so much sometimes I just answered the possible answers that I guess they are logic lol 😂 with tons of assignment they made me shed into tears.

Apart from that, I just figured out I am caffeine intolerance. After midsem break, I had 3 tests & I wasn't finished studying so I ended up drinking coffee to stay awake. That night I couldn't sleep. I had difficulty in breathing & I was in a state of tachycardia 😷 my anxiety & stress levels increased rapidly leading to tremors. Luckily I had a blood test to figure out my health condition & it seems fine thank goodness! However, the Dr prescribed me with 20mg/day propanolol to reduce my anxiety. To be honest, I am so sad because I am away from my family & I have to take care of myself. I went to the Dr alone & figure out my health status alone it made me stressed out as I feel like nobody loves or cares me. That's because I'm stuck here in Johor & my family members are in Perak. However I know that they are aware about myself because we keep in touch on family WhatsApp group & sometimes I received their calls. 

What makes me stressed more is about my lab work. I am a beginner & I have to start from scratch. I learnt from zero & got scolded while gaining knowledge. It hurts so much at the beginning but then I feel like I can cope with it as time goes by. Everything I learnt by myself, YouTube, research gate forum just name it. Luckily I have a great companion, a master student who helped me a lot. Thanks Kak Ina. May Allah repay your kindness 🌸

I think I could proudly say that I am mature now as I sacrifice my holiday *semester break for the sake of my future to graduate on time. I miss my family I really do but I have to bear just a little bit more & this nightmare will turn into a happy dream. I have faith in Allah SWT & I believe He will ease everything for me in Shaa Allah. Amin ya Rab!

Final year student,
Badik Chan Qowiyyyy 💪