Homesick

Dear readers,
Peace be upon you.

Alhamdulillah, I am fine staying in Skudai, Johor which is more than 100 miles away from my hometown, Kuala Kangsar, Perak. 2 weeks in UTM gone blown by the wind like dusts. My first class was a bit shocking. No lectures for 2 classes and fortunately, Prof Dr Mohamad taught me Mathematical Methods 1 on that specific day. I was just like why do I have to face maths again, thought that taking Biology as my major subject would be okay without confronting x and y solving problems.(algebra, calculus and etc)


HOMESICK. I miss Mom and Dad, my cats, my siblings - Kak Yang, Kak Ngah, Kak Cik & Along. Feeling lonely, I am so sick of it * I plan to buy bus tickets for the upcoming AidilAdha. It was my biggest mistake confirming a bus ticket from Kuala Kangsar to Johor Bahru on 6th October 2014 which is on Monday because I have classes on that date! I can't refund the ticket but I can't let it burnt like that. I don't think that this is silly as I take this situation seriously. I have been wandering around the Management Faculty to find my UHAS Malaysian Dynamic lecturer but he was on leave. Then I met Dr Norahim and discuss about this problem.


Truanting is not my style. I am responsible to attend my lectures and classes but as what my personal adviser said must be considered too.He said that what can I do instead of truanting. Hmmm, I am a new University  student and I am completely loss in dealing with things like this.I hope Allah SWT helps me within these 4 years to be able to fulfill my dreams by obtaining a high distinction degree. What an enormous problem! 


Staying here is fun too.Alhamdulillah as I am still able to breathe, enjoying these beautiful greenery scenes in UTM and making friends with others. I am trying really hard to adapt this situation. May Allah ease everything for me. Ameen ya Rabb!



Yours sincerely,


Autumn Tears

Degree

Dear readers,
Peace be upon you :3

The UPU result had been released 4 days ago and it was not a disappointment. To my surprise I was offered to further my degree in Bachelor of Science in Biology which is my interest in a local university of Malaysia which is UTM Skudai, Johor (Universiti Teknologi Malaysia). Congratulations, Wan Sujaihah! hehe :)

All praises to Allah! If Allah wills, I will be going to enroll as a degree student on 31st August 2014. May He ease everything for me. Amin ya Rabbi!! especially doing the preparation * I am busy recently staying in a hospital for more than 1 week* Mom is going to be recovered soon. In shaa Allah. I shall be at home tomorrow as I am at Along's house in Ipoh. 

yeah, I need to open SSPN account as soon as possible * I might choose Cimb Bank because I would like to make Cimb Clicks. PTPN pin number can be bought at BSN bank nearby by only RM 5.I hope I manage to get scholarship for this time .Amin. I am praying for JPA :D Applying for PTPTN is a backup for paying my study fees and supplying my pocket money. If I were chosen by any scholarships, cutting off the PTPN is another solution. So, wish me luck okay :3


My first thought:

I was at 8C Medical Ward Class 1 in Hospital Raja Permaisuri Bainun Ipoh. Accompanying mom is my duty as a loyal daughter. I learnt to take care of people through these whole weeks experience. It was tiring and I almost exhausted. I couldn't sleep at night. Comforting Mom when she felt scared-well, I am used to it. We, dad, Abah and my big brother, Along took shifts to take a look after Mom.I got night shift which starts at 6.30 p.m until 11 a.m on the next day. Mom was hospitalized since 5th August 2014 until today,15th August 2014, 10 days after she is discharged. Alhamdulillah.

It was 10 a.m in the morning and Mom was fasting since 12 midnight. She was doing her scope at the endoscopy unit.It took us about half an hour waiting for her.After reaching Ward Dahlia which is near the Royal Ward (Wad Diraja) I was lucky to see how does it look inside just now before Mom was discharged*seriously, it is enormous!and magnificent too.Princess mood is on.hehe It was nearly 12 noon. I bought mobile data earlier at dawn after sponging Mom and tried to open the UPU website.However it seemed ridiculous because there was no 4G line and the packet data was like a snail! Manual checking! go SMS! I wrote my ic number and sent to 15888.


hurm 15 minutes were gone.I checked the message details-but still not requested. Hedwigs theme gave me goosebumps as a new message was in the inbox;

Tahniah.Anda Ditawarkan Program TS02 di UTM. 

Sila rujuk www.upu.moe.gov.my untuk maklumat lanjut.

Abah was beside me. I told him.then I straightly told my family members in whatsapp group-The Tsukushies Unite!Everybody was shocked because it is too far from Perak, my hometown. Johor oh Johor. Now it is the time for me to be independent.*sigh T___T I don't have any choices. At least a friend of mine, rpkian and kmppian, Lena is in the same boat with the same course as mine!

I don't know.still kind of blur a bit.But I'm having a hard time before this so I guess that I don't have any feelings to describe about it.I accept the fate as I know Allah knows the best for me. May I pass my degree with High distinction! Amin ya Rabbi.So, welcome to University life, Badik. You are a grown up now.HAHA :D *I know but I still want to act like a kiddo. 

Yours Sincerely,

Autumn Tears

Syawal

Assalamualaikum readers! May peace be upon you :)

Alhamdulillah, finally we have reached Syawal and I appreciate this chance to write a latest entry today which is the sixth day of Syawal 1435 H. As I grow up day by day, I have been thinking a lot of matters lately and these made me open up my eyes as it shows how hard and challenging life can be. I am the youngest child in my family and it is my nature to be like some sort of spoil brats. I don't usually do the house chores because I enjoy living alone watching cartoons and playing games or even mind my own business. However, after knowing Mom's unstable condition, I am trying to be a persistent person. Mom is very fortunate to have wonderful prince and princesses who would stand by her and support her no matter what happens. And I am grateful to be one of her daughters. She is lucky to have Abah as her Imam too. Abah is the leader of the family.I am totally amazed with his amazing cooking skills to prepare diet dishes for Mom! When September approaches, I will be away from my family again. As the saying goes, study comes first, I hope I can cope well with my studies in University.Amin.



Kak Cik will be going back to Adelaide tomorrow. She will catch a train from Ipoh at 5.00 a.m on the next day to arrive KL Sentral. It is a bit sad knowing that we will only send her to Ipoh instead of Kuala Lumpur International Airport 2. I admit that all the highway roads are congested! We are only taking a risk driving from Kuala Kangsar, Perak to Kuala Lumpur during this Raya Season. We might stuck in a traffic jam for hours. That is suffocating for me! So, just a simple wish from me, Adik : Study well, dear Purplish Kak Cik. I know you can do it.Let the rest decided by Allah SWT. Just pray like the one I used to tell you before.Mention your good deeds* In Shaa Allah He will ease everything for you :3 Pray before departing. Pray during on board. Pray after arrival. Pray for your journey. Just pray to be safe. oh, and Good luck for BioChemistry Paper. Just do it! Hit it, bash it until you satisfied okay? hehe :D lol



The matured me is born. No wonder, aunties and uncles won't give "duit raya" anymore. Just certain of them gave money to me.hehe. I'm 19teen. The late teens. I can't believe that although I have been rubbing my eyes a few times!I am turning 20 years old next year, 2015. oh my!! * "Adik besar sudah mari.Lu goyang apa?" *crying & sobbing under pillows*  It's okay. I can tolerate with this situation but I can't for last year. Hey, according to Dewan Bahasa & Pustaka, Children can be defined as the age of 1 until 21, so in conclusion I am still a child! Kak Cik Purplish is also considered as a kiddo! Lol. this is very funny!!! HAHHAA :D *okay sorry if my statement is wrong: I guess that it is quite right because I take those words from Jejaka Idaman Malaya, the guy who is a debater from SMK bla bla * because I forget * during 2008 VS with the debaters from SMK Raja Perempuan Kelsom for Debat Bahasa Melayu.hehe. My bad if I am wrong!



This Syawal is very different from the years back. Maybe due to the global issues such as Gaza under attack, where all the Palestinians are not knowing whether they are alive or dead and the breaking news which breaks my fragile heart is MH17, Malaysians are mourning for this tragic accident. Ya Allah please save this ummah! I feel so sad to think about those people who are unfortunate. What makes me realized more is to be grateful living in a peace country, Malaysia. I feel more lucky to be a daughter of my parents and I don't mind being a commoner because there are a lot of people suffering from poverty rather than me. Alhamdulillah for everything! Thank you, Allah! I hope the Uncle, the one that Kak Yang saw during Ramadhan in The Store Mall will be blessed. May he lives longer and stay healthy.This Uncle makes me think twice about my fate because he is not afford to buy branded things for Eidulfitri. I feel like crying T__T Last but not least, I hope everyone is enjoying this month of Syawal. Have a blast year ahead! May all our good deeds be taken and counted during Ramadhan Mubarak. Amin Ya Rabbi! :)



Today's post is kind of short.Sorry for this update entry. I don't have a lot of ideas to write.hehe :B
Farewell!



Yours sincerely,

Autumn Tears 

Rindu Life Matriks

Kesayangan. My lovelies!

Dear readers,

Peace be upon you :)

How is it going guys? Fine during this Ramadan Mubarak? 4 days left before the upcoming Eidulfitri. The day of our victory! Alhamdulillah. All praises to Allah SWT. 

I have been so busy recently. Tired of doing the chores, of course! But I hope this challenge given by Allah will train me to be a loyal daughter for my parents. It is indeed making me realized that we, as caliphs have to live to the fullest by aiming not only dunya but both dunya and akhirat. We do not know when is the right time to be returned to Him so, we have to prepare ourselves by doing good deeds as much as we can. Based on the global issues nowadays, my heart achenes so much! Please save Gaza and help the Palestinians. The mystery of MH370 is not resolved yet and to my surprise MAS airplane, MH17 was crashed!

O Allah, please help us, I humbly send my prayers to Allah the Almighty :'(

He's Al-Faatir, the creator. We, caliphs belong to Allah and verily onto Him shall we return.

Okay, I miss my life in matriculation or specifically Penang Matriculation College. Yeah, I have been there as a science student for a year. My sis, Kakcik asked me, which phase that I like the most. Definitely my life as as a matriculation student! HAHA :D  I told her that. Well, I am different from others,* I think so because people usually miss their school life.Me? I don't know.   It is an honor for me when I was appointed to be the Head Girl of SMK Raja Perempuan Kelsom, Kuala Kangsar for 2012 session but frankly speaking I don't really admire my school too much. hehe. Don't be mad rpkians! Maybe this is because my personality which is introvert and I do not have a good rapport with the staffs and teachers plus juniors. Certain teachers that I adore only are the ones that I used to feel comfortable with but I don't speak much too with them. I speak when is needed because I am not a talkative person!

I become annoying and talkative with people I love :) hey,that's a fact! Wan Sujaihah's fact :D I don't think  science is an interesting subject in school especially Physics. well, I feel like an idiot answering 3 Physics papers for SPM without knowing what the questions actually want! erghhhhh!!! I am just lucky to score B in Physics. fuuuh! And I feel so grateful to be one of the KMPPians for 2013/2014 session because the lecturers taught me how to understand Science subjects better and I am madly in love with Chemistry during my 2nd semester because Miss Wong is the best teacher ever in the world! hehe Thank you for the knowledge teacher. I miss you :) Seriously, a lot of lesson and moral values can be discovered in KMPP.* and the most important thing is Module 3 Science students learn Computer Science which is something new and good bye Physics in my life!* For your information, I am an exchange module student. Because I really hate Physics, I applied for the module exchange from H3P5 to K3P4 :3 

I learn to be independent although the ugly truth is I was homesick for the first 6 months which is the 1st semester. I can't believe how weak I was before, crying all the time and always confront with the biggest fear which is STRESS! My roommates Ain, Faz & Mimi are the ones who enlighten my days. They always comfort me when nobody is going to fetch me home to Kuala Kangsar, Perak my hometown. At least, we did activities like other students do such as watching movies and marathon Korean dramas! hehe I have cool buddies in K3P4. We are just like a one big family :D I miss them. Everybody has their own specialties and this make us unique, hey! We live while we're young! HAHA. The most awesome memory is when we participated in a choir competition!Everybody tried their best. It didn't matter if we do not have beautiful voices but at least we tried to sing loudly with the correct pronunciation! I know sometimes I am moody especially during the choir practice. Just imagine how busy I am, that night, we had to go for Chemistry extra class from 8 p.m until 10 p.m. Then, we continued singing "One Thing" and "Live While We're Young" by One Direction until 11 p.m.

After that, light off announcement  was heard. and we must go back to our niche, me at A3-2-1 (Sri Ixora) That was very tremendous!! and my tutorials were not finished but I don't remember what did I do because I don't think I was scolded by the teachers! hehe and the best part is the next day was quizzes for Biology and Science Computer! Oh Crap!!!! I just accept the fate.  Funny but totally a mental torture! *,,* I remember the time 1 week before the final examination, a couple of days before our study week, we met at the basketball court making a big circle after Isyak.Each of us said sorry, apologise and confess everything for this one year friendship. It was so sad and I almost cried. We are strangers at first but a bond suddenly developed as time goes by. I hope this bond is everlasting! That night after Biology papers, which is the last paper, we met again. An enormous cirlce is made again. A4 papers were passed to each other. We jot down about our impressions toward our K3P4 members. We played truth or dare. Crazy moments back then.lol! I was asked whether I fall in love with a guy- I chose  "truth" instead of dare. HAHA 

The UPU result is just around the corner. We will be going different pathways after this. All the best my sporting & cool K3P4 members! May Allah bless us  :D Amin. Do the best and let the past be past. Just a word from, Wan Comel : Keep Moving Forward!

Love you guys so much! :)

Lab Coat Day :D

Yours sincerely,   

Wan :3

Sayang Abah!

Assalamualaikum pembaca sekalian! :D

Salam Ramadhan Mubarak :)

Yeay, entri kali ini dalam bahasa ibunda kerana penulis inginkan suasana yang santai.hehe. Pedulikan tatabahasa yang salah.Gaya penulisan kali ini lebih kepada percakapan Bahasa Melayu dalam kehidupan seharian.Semoga terhibur dan mudah untuk memahami cerita yang ingin disampaikan oleh penulis :3

Okay, sayang abah!hoho. Abahlah hero, orang kuat dalam famili, pendidik *abah cikgu* dan macam2 lagilah! Walaupun Abah kite dah menginjak usia 60-an tapi abah tetap kuat. Boleh lagi memandu dan buat kerja2 org muda.Cayalah abah. Hero Malaya niiii. Dah2 cukup2 sudah memuji :P

Hari ni, macam biasa abah ke pasar untuk membeli  barang dapur. Bila dah balik, tiba2 je abah tanya

 " Adik, ingat lagi tak anak kawan abah ni. Dia dah nak pergi Nottingham.Mak dia tanya Adik sekarang buat apa. Abah ckp la tengah tunggu nak masuk Uni "

" Oh. ingat2.Wah untung la dia.Amik kursus apa?? " aku membalas.

" Entahlah. Abah tak tanya pulak. Medik kot. Eh takpe, nanti adik pergi Monash ye. Mak Uda cakap keluaran Monash hebat2 belaka" bersungguh-sungguh Abah menyatakan hasrat di hati.

" Alaa Abah.Takde rezeki la Adik nak ke Aussie. Tuu, salahkan scholar, takmo bagi adik pergi interview.huhu.Abah sedih ke Adik tak daapat sambung study ke luar negara?" saja bagi soalan cepu emas!

" Abah sedih " jawab Abah.

Eh2 Abah aku ni, sian pulak aku rasa. Takpa lah Abah rezeki org masing2. Dari dulu lagi, nak suhh pegi Ottawa, Canada, hajat tak kesampaian. Masa study week dulu, ada peluang nak dapat Scholar MyBrainSc, tapi tak lepas pulak Ujian Permata Pintar UKM 2. Bapak pening aku jawab soalan IQ tu. Siap Abah dan Mak amik kat KMPP esoknya terus ke Ipoh jawab kat Sekolah Tunku Abdul Rahman. Lepas tu hantar balik ke Penang.Essok paginya baru aku dapat balik A3.2.1 study balik semua subjek yg dah terbengkalai buat 2,3 hari. Adoi.*tepuk kepala.

Memang besar pengorbanan Abah aku ni. Belum cerita Mami lagi.ish2. Sian Mami, berjuang melawan penyakitnya itu. Semoga Allah panjangkan umur kedua orang tuaku, murahkan rezeki mereka dari segi kesihatan, kewangan, kebahagiaan dan paling penting semoga dapat  berjumpa dengan mereka kembali di Jannah! Amin ya Rabbi! :) Takpe Abah, teruskanlah berdoa. Tambah2 pulak dalam bulan Ramadhan ni kan. Lepas ni nak keluar result UPU/USM. Semoga kursus yang Allah dah tetapkan untuk Adik adalah yang terbaik di mana terdapat banyak peluang kerjaya dan dijanjikan gaji yang lumayan!

Nanti bolehlah Adik belanja Abah & Mami macam yang Kakngah & Kakyang selalu buat.hehe. Tak lupa juga boleh belanja sekali kakak2ku yang sporting + Abg aku yg sorg tu. Okay! Deal. Jangan lupa doakan kejayaan Adik ye. Amin :D Saya sayang keluarga Meor! wuwuwuuw * drum rolls * Abah kalau nak sangat Adik gi sambung oversea satu hari nanti doakan Adik selalu ye. Manalah tau, kot2 dapat sambung Master or PHD.haa Abah boleh ikut Adik! Nanti buat pernigaan Nasi Ayam kat sana. Seronok students Malaysia nanti.hehe :3 Haa satu lagi, mintak2 la dapat biasiswa. Amin.

Serious beribu2 ringgit banyak habis semata2 perbelanjaan perubatan. Adik tahu kita ni commoners je. Kalaulah kaya, dah lama boleh je jadi private student fly sekarang jugak! HAHA Eh angan2 yang tak kesampaian je tuh. Takpe nanti Adik study rajin2 tau. Biar dapat 4 flat setiap sem.Amin. Baru boleh jadi best student. Nnt ade je laa org nak taja gi sambung oversea.hehe 

Don't worry Abah. Be happy as always. I love you! :* You are our joker in Meor's family. May Allah bless you with His endless blessing! It's okay, 2 daughters of yours had been studied in Manipal & Adelaide. Me? Only Allah knows. If Allah wills, I'll be pursuing my next level in this wide world somewhere. But for now, Malaysia is my chosen country, tanah tumpah darahku! Ada la rezeki kita nanti. Semoga Abah sihat selalu.

Love,

Adik.

Sentap

Dear readers,
Peace be upon you.


Hello everyone. Nice meeting you again on Greatest Story Ever Told. This is my first post in July. Ramadhan Mubarak falls in this month of July 2014. Alhamdulillah, all praises to Allah SWT for giving the greatest gift for Muslims to repent or seek for forgiveness and most definitely collecting rewards due to the good deeds! Congratulations for fasting. May Allah ease everything especially to refrain from hunger and thirst.

I will not be posting a new entry without having a sizzling news to tell. So, can you guess what kind of story will be written today? Okay, although we have reached the month of Barakah, I don't think it is wrong to criticize something. As for me, it is good to tell the truth instead of keeping it as a secret which leads you to be regret for facing it alone without gaining advice or sharing the problems to the others.

I really hate someone who does not value friendship. I admit that I am an introvert person and I usually face some difficulties to mingle with other people. I do have friends but not many. I treasure my friends like my family too although priorities come first for family members. I have a friend. A so called friend. She is too good to be true. She is nice, clever and petite. I love being around her but she was meant to be one of the SBP students. We keep in touch on the social media. She always congratulates me when I perform well in my studies. 

We both scored straight A's in PMR 2010. Straight A's students usually pursue their next level in Science stream and so do I. While SBP students will definitely be pursuing their studies in Science stream. We are both pure science students. At the age of 16teen, I found myself an identity confusion. This is all because of Physics, Chemistry, Biology and Additional Mathematics! I could not perform well like I always did the 3 years back in secondary school. She was doing good in her boarding school. I felt envy for the first time but I know I had to get rid of this feeling.

It was SPM trial examination for 2012. I did my best and I know she can do way better than me. The exam was over. She sent me a message on facebook asking about my grades. There, I know I found something wrong about her. She was not like the one I used to know before. Maybe she thinks that she is too great and genius ==' Although she does not boasting about her excellent achievements, she does not want to stay longer in our long conversation.

21/3/2013, the date which announced the SPM result for 2012. I got 7A's and 2B's. I feel grateful too although  I didn't get straight A's. She does not text me like she usually did. No messages from her until now. We do not keep in touch. I stalked her facebook profile. She scored straight A's! To my surprise, she manages to further her studies in Jordan. However, I don't know what scholarship and course that she's into. Maybe medicine but never mind. I was informed that she was studying in UTP before pursuing in oversea university. There is no relation between  an engineering course that she studied before and medicine. There is a contrast there!

It is okay my dear friend for doing this to me. Stay happy with your current life because I am happy with my life now without you. I am not stupid, for your information. I manage myself to finish my one year science matriculation program. Science stream is not bad after all although I found myself an identity confusion before. Don't ever find or talk to me when you need me someday because I never forget what you had done to me unless  you say sorry and apologize. I may be good but I will never be fooled again.


Yours sincerely,   

Autumn Tears

Destined

Dear readers,

Peace be upon you :3
Regarding the title, what kind of entry should I write?Well, to tell the truth, it is all about my life after I ended my matriculation program. Before swapping my story, I've came across with this : How to be popular? specifically, being acknowledged by other people form all walks of life, world wide just by creating blog? HAHA I look like a desperate person! It is not what you think dudes, calm down okay! hehe. I wonder?? hurm. Because, a couple of days ago, my practicum mate, Khai asked me to shed him some light on blogging and that kind of stuffs. So, as a blogger for 5 years, why not I give him some help. Amateurs must learn from the experts,right? HAHA Just now, I was blog-walking and I found some interesting blogs. and hey, their followers, Masha Allah, more than 50 K. Can you believe that? sobbing. Sister FL, or Fatin Liyana, how can I be like you- feeling down to earth. Google this by yourself :

http://honeykoyuki.blogspot.com/

Before we start talking nonsense and so on, let us straight to the point, The main idea of this post today :)

That is just a piece of my mind. I still remember when I was frustrated (*menonggeng) after my PSPM 1 result which is so-so CGPA 3.68 for the first semester and I wrote that on the 1st January of 2014. woahh.

I know Allah SWT has something special for me in the end. And maybe I am motivated by friends, roommates and of course Mom and Dad, siblings to move on and let go of the past. As a result, I struggle hard for my 2nd semester and it turned out well but not as high as expected which is only CGPA 3.93 for my PSPM 2. So, basically calculated my overall pointer for my 1 year Science Matriculation Program is 3.68 + 3.93 then divide by 2 to calculate the average pointer equals to 3.8 which is okay, I am grateful because JPA's minimum requirement is CGPA 3.75. I am way up high only 0.05! HAHA- Hopefully for this time, Allah SWT grants my d'ua. Amin. I really need scholarship, indeed- feeling meh_

I need to improve myself before pursuing my degree in the month of September.Wake me up when September comes.hehe Why? Because, I am still lacking of cooking skills. I admit that! How am I supposed to get married?EH- out of sudden! No. How am I going to be independent? That's it okay! Don't get me wrong with the statement "married" It is not the right time yet!HAHA. Lucky me when I stayed in Ipoh with my sister in law, I cooked by myself some simple dishes such as Chicken soup with macaroni, chicken fillet seasoned with turmeric, chicken fillet with oyster sauce and my super duper omelette creamy mayo!I am an amateur in cooking but I will never stop trying unless I quit. No one in my family is a quitter including me.(ye ke?) 

Next, I am still scared to drive. Pathetic me :( *crying. What's the point of having a license? but I never drive since I finished Matriculation? Well, there are two manual cars owned by my parents and they don't mind letting me use the cars.Manual??erm, I do not have the chance to learn automatic cars yet- No automatic cars at my house unless Sister Syakira brings her auto Proton Saga and Sis Syamimi brings her auto Almera home. Kancil is just the right choice for me to learn driving.But I don't remember the last time I drive a car. Maybe 2 or 3 times after I passed JPJ driving test. and that is a year ago!! *_*

Arggh I think that I am just a spoil brat :/ because these things can't be handled by me easily. Wake up, Wan Sujaihah! You are not a baby anymore. You are 19teen!!*sad. Dad and Mom are getting older.I can't rely on them too much.I need the courage to improve myself better than yesterday and before. Mom is not feeling well and the house is like a chaos! Who else should be a maid without payment?- That would be me. huhu. nahh it is okay, after all I am freaking free like a bird! 3 months to go for holidays, brothers and sisters. Wish me luck then! and oh, pray for my enrollment in University :) and scholarship too :* May Allah shower you with His endless blessings! Amin.

Yours sincerely,   

Autumn Tears