Inferior Complex

This uncertainty feeling of mine is driving me crazy. I am tensed up. My 3 months semester break is not that worth at all. I organized some plans but those are a bit futile. Shame on me. Still struggling to sharpen my driving skills, a reckless cook who can't even fry an egg, & having some fights and arguments with dad which is the worst state of my life. I'm tired. Tired of being hypocrite. Why can't I just be me. But then people will start to bash me with harsh words like "hey, you're a girl, act like one! What a rude maiden!" Is this all my fault? I'm trying to be an angel who will please everyone but I just can't! Forcing me to disguise like a saint, oh hello I am sorry. They made me this way. They turn me into a revolting, disgusting, impolite young lady. I can't just blame myself 100%. The question is who are they? My life is too complicated after Mom passed away. Envious feeling of certain people towards my life is a laughable. They are not in my shoes and they won't fit it anyway. How can you wear a glass slipper when you are not even Cinderella? Tell me.

Updated as always

Peace be upon you :)
Dear readers,

Ramadhan Mubarak! A bit busy recently after final examination ends. 2 months holiday is a bless! Alhamdulillah. A 2nd- year degree student to be too in shaa Allah. May Allah ease. So many things to do. This is the first Ramadhan without Mak :( It feels weird. No more tart nenas & homemade biscuits for the upcoming Eid prepared by Mak. I miss her lecture especially when waking me up for sahur. 

Her voice, her smile , her figure - I miss them. Oh Allah, bless my parents after all that they have been through to bring me up when I was young. Oh Allah, please forgive all their sins as you are most forgiving, you love to forgive, so forgive them. 

My second semester result will be released soon, probably during the Eid. I hope Allah gives the best result for me as the saying goes Man jadda wajada - Those who strive shall succeed. *Dean list please* I learnt through mistakes from the past. I hope I can reward this 2nd semester result for Mak & Abah. I want them to be happy as always. Frankly, I do admit that Biosciences is one of the challenging courses offered by UTM. I was so down to earth during my first semester. Well, despite the lost - Mak passed away, I was able to go through the pain which is killing me inside . However, it did affect my performance. Hey, it was all my fault and I can't blame others when it comes to my academic grades. It was just a good luck when I passed the minimum JPA requirement but still I am not satisfied with my CGPA. I need to work harder and able to graduate another 3 years in shaa Allah. Amin.

Study is hard, I am not bluffing. I can't handle stress but so far so good, I survive. Just imagine how difficult life can be when the University did not provide any study weeks because the students had extended their holiday during the last Chinese New Year. Indeed it was very stressful. All praises to Allah as we manage it anyway. I am still hunting the latest attire for the upcoming Eid. It was a disappointment when I couldn't find any which suits me the best- I mean it is not as easy as pie to find the right size for me. I tried size "S" baju kurung from First Lady but it was too big :( I guess that I need to find XS -,,- The past Syawal, Mak will buy at least 4.5m clothes for each of us (my siblings) and will go to a tailor shop. The Tailor will measure exactly the right size for me but no more this year sobs T_T It is hard to forget all those memories created with my beloved Mak.

Making cookies? Still wondering what will I make. Sounds pathetic isn't it? I don't care as long as there will be some displays on the table. HAHA Funny :P Before this mission, I need to accomplish all the tasks related to chores in order to maintain the cleanliness of the house first. That's my priority so bye bye biscuits. I hope I have a wonderful Syawal with my family this year and I pray for your happiness too *for those who read this. May Allah accept all our good deeds during this holy month of Ramadhan. Happy Fasting everyone! :)

Yours sincerely,

Autmn Tears

Tips Melancong Ke Hong Kong

Assalamualaikum semua :D

Baru-baru ini saya telah ke Hong Kong bersama Kakak yang baru selesai posting orthopedik dan Abah pada 14 Februari 2015. Lawatan singkat kami hanyalah 4 hari 3 malam. Bagi anda yang sukakan pengembaraan, mungkin serba sedikit tips daripada saya berguna buat anda.

Traveling as BACKPACKERS :-

Stok makanan 4 hari 3 malam

1. Penyediaan makanan seperti gambar di atas amat penting. Walaupun masih terdapat makanan halal, namun harganya amat mahal ibarat 2 kali ganda harga makanan di Malaysia.

2. Kajian tempat : selepas membeli online tiket kapal terbang, saya telah menempah hotel melalui airasia go *promosi daripada air asia* - Kedudukan hotel hendaklah strategik.

 

Cosmo Hotel Wan Chai ialah tempat penginapan kami.

Ia terletak di kawasan Wan Chai.

3.Kajian tentang tempat-tempat menarik di sekitar hotel. Jika anda memilih Cosmo Hotel/Cosmopolitan Hotel :-

a.Ocean Park

b.Stanley Market

c.Victoria Peak (The Peak)

d.Time Square (shopping complex)

e.Sogo(shopping complex)

f.Masjid Ammar And Osman Ramju Sadick Islamic Centre

Tempat idaman : Disneyland Hong Kong Resort di Lantau Island

Selesai uji kaji jom sertai pengembaraan kami! 

14 Februari 2015:-

Touch down Hong Kong International Airport di level 5. Terus ke kaunter MTR membeli "Octopus Card" HKD 150 seorang HKD 50 sebagai deposit. Kami juga membeli one way tiket ke Hong Kong Station kerana lebih murah untuk 3 orang iaitu HKD 210 berbanding menggunakan octopus card iaitu HKD 100 seorang.(dapat murah hanya HKD 70)  

 *kami kembalikan kad di kaunter pertanyaan MTR di airport express sebelum pulang ke tanah air.Baki yang masih ada kami peroleh.

Tambah nilai Octopus card boleh dilakukan di mesin yang disediakan di setiap stesen MTR atau di kedai 7-Eleven.

Simcard boleh didapati di tingkat 5 juga di kedai 1010. 7 hari unlimited internet.

Sampai di Hong Kong Station, kami menunggu free bus shuttle Cosmo Hotel dan terus ke hotel untuk check in. Promosi air asia 1  bilik 2 orang untuk 4 hari 3 malam ialah RM 945.sampai di sana hotel ini tidak kira kepala walaupun kami travel bertiga.walaubagaimanapun, deposit sebanyak HKD 900 diperlukan.

Free Smart phone. Boleh telefon Malaysia percuma.

internet juga percuma.Hanya di Cosmo Hotel

Malam itu, kami hanya berjalan menghirup udara di kota metropolitan.

15 Februari 2015:-

Seawal 9 pagi kami menunggu bas di hadapan St. Joseph's Primary School di Queen's Road East.Kami ke Stanley untuk pergi ke Stanley Market. Pihak hotel akan menyediakan pamplet jadual bas berkala ke tempat-tempat menarik.Jadi tidak perlu risau tentang itu. Kami turun di Stanley Plaza.

Keadaan di Stanley Plaza

Kami berjalan dalam 3 minit turun dari shopping complex di stanley plaza dan akhirnya menemui Stanley Market. Ia merupakan tempat yang boleh tawar menawar, Sesuai untuk mencari ole-ole di sini.

 Di sekitar Stanley Plaza

Makanan halal- Indian Cuisine yang terdapat

di kedai Mirch Masala di Stanley Plaza.

Kami memilih menu Dinner for 2 dan air mineral

berharga HKD 366.

Tengah hari itu kami pulang ke Hotel menunaikan jamak zohor dan asar. Dalam jam 3.30 petang kami ke Islamic centre dan Masjid di Oi Kwan Road yang sangat hampir dengan Cosmo Hotel.

Petang itu, kami menaiki bas ke The Peak untuk memasuki Madame Tussauds. 

Tips ke Madam Tussauds:

Lebih baik beli online kerana lebih murah berbanding membeli tiket on the spot.

Di The Peak.

Bersama peninju Mat Ali di Madame Tussauds

Bersama David Beckham

16 Februari 2015:

Kami ke Disneyland Hong Kong!

Tips: Boleh beli tiket di Disneyland HKD 499 dewasa, HKD 100 kanak-kanak & warga emas(65 tahun ke atas) Dari Wan Chai kami menaiki bas turun di Central. Berjalan kaki masuk ke IFC Mall dan mencari Hong Kong Station.Dari sana, naik MTR di kawasan Tung Chung Line dan turun di Sunny Bay. Transit ke Disneyland Resort dan akhirnya sampai :D 

Makanan halal: Explorer's Club di Mystic Point @ Tahittan Terrace di Adventureland.

Saya teruja dengan semua anak patung Disney

ni.hehe. Nasiblah beli satu bawak balik Malaysia- Monster Inc

Mike :D * yang colour hijau tu bermata 1.

17 Februari 2015:

Pulang ke Tanah Air.

 Yang Benar,

Autumn Tears

 

The ugly truth

Peace be upon you

Dear readers,

A one month holiday for university students is such a blessed. Fighting for the final exam is very depressing! Tough subjects for the first semester had broken my dream to achieve the Dean list * crying* I don't know what shall I get  but I'm praying so hard to Allah SWT for maintaining my CGPA pointer. please please please. It's a reality for the students to face failure in university. I'm not bluffing. There is a big contrast between matriculation or any pre-university program and university. Independent studying. Low carry marks due to difficult tests and quizzes. End up crying and moaning. Why am I facing this? Please ya Allah! Grant my du'a. It's a burden when you had your scholarship if you do not excel. Semua punah.hancur luluh hati.


I know that I am not a robot. But what I do everyday is always the same. It is repeated on the next day and the day after that and so on. It's a hectic life and I am so bored with this :( I know I have to go back to Allah. The emptiness feeling in my heart keeps growing day by day. Without Mom beside me, it makes me down to earth more! Oh Allah, everyday I'll try to be as good as I can to you. Loving you the best I can will always be my number one and only plan. Guide me to the right path.


a tool(education) is a fardhu kifayah but when I started to involve in this IQ course, I hope you ease everything for me. Please help me to spread my own talent after graduating to give benefits for my own country as well as the citizens especially for the Muslims. It is an ibadah. Renew my heart with a high iman. Let me tend to do this because of you, ya Allah! LillahiTaala. Amin. Still upset with my performance in academic but will be motivated with the hikmah behind this. The root of education is bitter but the fruits are sweet. Never leave Allah behind. Keep praying for the best. Du'a is a Muslim's weapon. Keep moving forward!