Thursday, January 15, 2015

The ugly truth

Peace be upon you

Dear readers,

A one month holiday for university students is such a blessed. Fighting for the final exam is very depressing! Tough subjects for the first semester had broken my dream to achieve the Dean list * crying* I don't know what shall I get  but I'm praying so hard to Allah SWT for maintaining my CGPA pointer. please please please. It's a reality for the students to face failure in university. I'm not bluffing. There is a big contrast between matriculation or any pre-university program and university. Independent studying. Low carry marks due to difficult tests and quizzes. End up crying and moaning. Why am I facing this? Please ya Allah! Grant my du'a. It's a burden when you had your scholarship if you do not excel. Semua punah.hancur luluh hati.


I know that I am not a robot. But what I do everyday is always the same. It is repeated on the next day and the day after that and so on. It's a hectic life and I am so bored with this :( I know I have to go back to Allah. The emptiness feeling in my heart keeps growing day by day. Without Mom beside me, it makes me down to earth more! Oh Allah, everyday I'll try to be as good as I can to you. Loving you the best I can will always be my number one and only plan. Guide me to the right path.


a tool(education) is a fardhu kifayah but when I started to involve in this IQ course, I hope you ease everything for me. Please help me to spread my own talent after graduating to give benefits for my own country as well as the citizens especially for the Muslims. It is an ibadah. Renew my heart with a high iman. Let me tend to do this because of you, ya Allah! LillahiTaala. Amin. Still upset with my performance in academic but will be motivated with the hikmah behind this. The root of education is bitter but the fruits are sweet. Never leave Allah behind. Keep praying for the best. Du'a is a Muslim's weapon. Keep moving forward!