People change

Peace be upon you. I find it weird when suddenly people who aren't interested in reading my blog before this would be my silent readers for my latest post 😂 Thank you. In this holy month, I think Allah wanted to show His mercy on me that there are certain people who are curious *solely labelled as bawang* here. I didn't intend to provoke anyone that's why I didn't even post any link to share oh I'm talking trash about others on my latest post! Here read this post! I'm telling a sizzling news about fakers! If you are offended this shows that you are one of the fakers then. Hypothesis is accepted 😂 We are humans, not a saint. Everyone makes mistakes. I know I am not holy. The reason I posted the previous entry is because I wanted to express myself on what I have been through. Ok let me tell you straight, will you be okay enduring yourself doing your fyup without any supports? I bet nobody can handle the stress. Of course you will at least have a friend to cry on but in my case? Do I have any??? *I do have one but the reason I felt sad is because someone who is once closed to me is not the one who I can rely on. It makes me sad why people can change out of sudden 😢 It feels awkward & I was praying a lot before this but it didn't seem alright. The bonds that are meant to be repaired are still hanging without a word. I don't want to hurt myself anymore. I've been reflecting myself a lot too. Maybe I did a lot of sins that's why Allah tested me like this. I felt like a ruthless friend when I couldn't even give advice like praying 5 times a day will be enough as a Muslim. I felt ashamed although I joined Usrah & learned about Tarbiyah I couldn't give dakwah to those who aren't aware about 5 times prayers which is the simplest thing to do as a Muslim. I want us to be able to go to Jannah. It's not that I hate you but silently I'm praying for you. I'm lost & confused. Are you still considering me as your precious friend or actually a friend on name (direct translation from BM 😂 kawan atas nama sahaja, sebab tu saya rasa itu penipuan semata2). I love you but I don't think you love me as I do 😅 I hope everyone can change to be better. Just pray to Allah so that we will be able to be a true Muslim in Shaa Allah 😊

Will be graduating soon

Salam. Hi there. I hope nobody will come across this post because I felt like cursing (opsss in this holy month of Ramadan 😀) Yes! I will be graduating soon. Just had my structural biology online test. What's left is final exam *I didn't study yet because yesterday was crazy, submission of spiral bound thesis & guess what after viva which was the 6 days before submission was like hell! I didn't get enough sleep. Got stomach ache 2/3 times went to toilet & flushed everything out leaving my stomach empty and I was fasting 😠. I didn't go back to my own room because I found it disturbing to do all my work there. It was a better choice to be a nomad, haha sorry Tikah & Dila. I slept over at your rooms & had sahur until today. I wasn't planning on going back but I have to because I didn't have my clothes as well as my laundry is getting bigger. I need to set time to wash all the clothes. And I am confused as my exam is starting on 30th May and a sudden change of Kakak Naqibah & she told me I have to attend mukyyam dahili on 25th & 26th OMG I don't know. Everything is too fast and I haven't study for the upcoming exam like seriously?😩😧😥 Why is my life is too pathetic? I guess that I'm easily triggered with petty little things. I was pissed off easily although it's not a big deal. BUT WHY WOULD YOU MAKE ME LIKE THIS? THIS IS ALL YOUR FAULT TO BEGIN WITH SO I'M NOT SO SORRY HAHAHAHAHAA. 4 years friendship in University revealed everyone's dark side which make me feel like puking. I hate to say this but I think most of my friends are fake 😏 Hence, they are not trustworthy only a few which I consider my close ones. Even the one who once closed to me are far away out from my reach and I don't regret it as I felt relieved your true color disgust me. That's why I'm leaving. I don't feel emotional & I don't feel eager to participate in photo session like previous semesters. I feel like please let me finish already and disappear. I don't want to have any involvement with you. I want to live my life freely from negative vibes *ONE OF THE FACTORS WHY I DEACTIVATE TWITTER ACCOUNT* So probably contacting a few people who are NOT FAKE after graduation will do 😊😊😊I hope THE FAKERS are not reading this 😂😂😂If they did, I pray to Allah SWT that they will reflect their behavior as well as taking time to ponder. HAHAHAHAHAH Amin. May the fakers get some light to go to the right path in shaa Allah hehe. So, job hunting? Are you ready??? Good luck dear self!