Saturday, May 24, 2014

Mentaliti Masyarakat

Peace be upon you, readers!

While I was enjoying my breakfast at a stall with my parents, out of the blue an old man probably having the same or older age than dad approached us and started chatting with dad. He ordered some food and sat near our table. Dad was having fun talking to him. He asked me where did I studied.

"Adik belajar di mana?"asked the uncle. "Oh, saya baru tamat pengajian satu tahun Matrikulasi Pulau Pinang" I responded. "Haa 4 flat ke??" he added. "Taklah pakcik, 3.68 sahaja" I replied.

"Kenapa tak dapat 4 flat?apa lah. Bukan belajar satu tahun saje?Dah satu tahun tu patutnya score exam. Ini tidak" he criticized with a sarcastic voice.

I was shocked.But what should I say instead of giving a big fake smile to him. This makes me get mad. Our Asian culture is not supportive at all! At least this uncle should give me some courage and motivates me to score 4 flat but as you can see he criticized me and  made me look down on myself! This is definitely a big difference with the Western culture which I usually get to know that the people are always being supportive by saying "well done! good job! you can do better next time :) or congratulations!"

Oh dear uncle, why is it so hard for you to say simple words like that? I hope you realized as soon as possible. Just a suggestion, why don't you put yourself in my shoes? It's not as easy as a pie to score with flying colours in any courses especially in science stream. Just imagine how much should you spend your hours dating with books. What if you don't understand certain topics?It's stressful you know? You don't know what it's like. So, welcome to my life my dearest Uncle! =_=

Our Asian parents are usually boasting about their children's achievement in examination and nowadays trend is definitely where is your son/daughter pursuing his or her degree.Is it foreign university or local university? If your child gets to be accepted in foreign university, everybody is getting excited  by giving compliments and etc such as wow!that's cool and awesome.when will he/she fly.what's the name of the university. I am so proud of your son/daughter's achievement. How about local university?oh really. good luck then. well, that's all?? -,- oh come on!

I would like to say that either foreign or local university, it is just the same! The courses offered are all the same!Either you study in Malaysia or other countries, if you study Medicine then the others are also studying Medicine. Is there any difference? Yes you might say there is because there are four seasons in Europe meanwhile tropical season in Malaysia. Please, Allah SWT had created humans from all walks of life. Although we don't have the same nation, religion, race we have the same fluid flowing in our veins which is known as blood which is also the same isn't it?

I would like to justify that people should change their negative perspectives. Please grow up and be an optimist. No matter who you are, no matter where you are,we are alike. Please view at different angles when seeing or discussing something. I hope you can get the messages from my points of view. Please be noted.

Yours sincerely,

Autumn Tears

Wednesday, May 7, 2014

Why me?


Dear readers,

Peace be upon you.

Hey, I am waiting for my UPU result. May Allah SWT  grant my du'a to be able accepted in one of the Universities in Malaysia since I don't have that so called 'good' luck to go for an interview for MyBrainSc scholarship.For your information, you might regret by not choosing me :P I have the qualifications that are needed *I am complimenting myself * It is worth having me okay! haha. Please ya Allah, please let my pointer pass for this time to apply for JPA Scholarship >_<  Amin. Yeah I need to hunt for scholarships, I don't want to be a big burden for my parents. Furthering studies in the next level costs a lot! Although my parents can afford it but I don't like it. I need to show my abilities too in order to get any scholarships. I seek for your help, Allah the Mighty :')

It is kind of stressful day today too. As dad said " Adik ada power" okay, what does it mean? It means that I have a power that attracts people around me, I mean my family members. Everybody needs me. It seems that they can't live without me :P so, why me?

The first reason is : Dad needs me to help him in the orchard. As I posted in the previous entry about my dad is running an oil palm plantation in our orchard, my strength is needed indeed.

Next: Mom is not feeling well since I was 14teen. She needs me beside her to look after her. Well I am used to it.After all, mom raised me for 19 years so it does not bother me either.

Along: He's working abroad this time. He needs my help to look after Kak Long. Just a week. Bro is closer with me than the other siblings. Getting help from others might be a little awkward?haha *just kidding

Kak Ngah: I had worked with her during my 2nd semester to help secondary students for English who will be sitting for SPM 2014. I love being a tutor :) I might see them again on 16/17  May however this dates clash with Kak Yang's vacation day. I guess that I will do some charity works this time rather than indulging myself with fun activities during Kak Yang's vacation.

Kak Yang: She has been stressed out recently. It is hard to be an intern in Taiping Hospital. All I can do is only pray for her. She'll be sitting for her medical examination before pursuing her next posting in surgery.She needs her own space and a vacation. She wants me to tag along. I don't mind but I have to help Kak Ngah with the charity works. I am so sorry dear sis.

Kak Cik: This person seems okay. She does not need any helps from me I guess. hehe. I hope she is in the pink of health in Aussie. Hey, we had face-time on iPhone just now :3 It is good to hear Elsa's purring. oh how I wish to go to Adelaide someday. Please let my dream come true ya Allah :D

Having discussed the matter above, it is clearly proven that I am needed by everyone in my family :P This might due to my characteristics which are loyal, good and hardworking xD That's all I can conclude.

Farewell everyone!

Yours sincerely, 

Autumn Tears