Dear readers,
Ramadhan Mubarak! A bit busy recently after final examination ends. 2 months holiday is a bless! Alhamdulillah. A 2nd- year degree student to be too in shaa Allah. May Allah ease. So many things to do. This is the first Ramadhan without Mak :( It feels weird. No more tart nenas & homemade biscuits for the upcoming Eid prepared by Mak. I miss her lecture especially when waking me up for sahur.
Her voice, her smile , her figure - I miss them. Oh Allah, bless my parents after all that they have been through to bring me up when I was young. Oh Allah, please forgive all their sins as you are most forgiving, you love to forgive, so forgive them.
My second semester result will be released soon, probably during the Eid. I hope Allah gives the best result for me as the saying goes Man jadda wajada - Those who strive shall succeed. *Dean list please* I learnt through mistakes from the past. I hope I can reward this 2nd semester result for Mak & Abah. I want them to be happy as always. Frankly, I do admit that Biosciences is one of the challenging courses offered by UTM. I was so down to earth during my first semester. Well, despite the lost - Mak passed away, I was able to go through the pain which is killing me inside . However, it did affect my performance. Hey, it was all my fault and I can't blame others when it comes to my academic grades. It was just a good luck when I passed the minimum JPA requirement but still I am not satisfied with my CGPA. I need to work harder and able to graduate another 3 years in shaa Allah. Amin.
Study is hard, I am not bluffing. I can't handle stress but so far so good, I survive. Just imagine how difficult life can be when the University did not provide any study weeks because the students had extended their holiday during the last Chinese New Year. Indeed it was very stressful. All praises to Allah as we manage it anyway. I am still hunting the latest attire for the upcoming Eid. It was a disappointment when I couldn't find any which suits me the best- I mean it is not as easy as pie to find the right size for me. I tried size "S" baju kurung from First Lady but it was too big :( I guess that I need to find XS -,,- The past Syawal, Mak will buy at least 4.5m clothes for each of us (my siblings) and will go to a tailor shop. The Tailor will measure exactly the right size for me but no more this year sobs T_T It is hard to forget all those memories created with my beloved Mak.
Making cookies? Still wondering what will I make. Sounds pathetic isn't it? I don't care as long as there will be some displays on the table. HAHA Funny :P Before this mission, I need to accomplish all the tasks related to chores in order to maintain the cleanliness of the house first. That's my priority so bye bye biscuits. I hope I have a wonderful Syawal with my family this year and I pray for your happiness too *for those who read this. May Allah accept all our good deeds during this holy month of Ramadhan. Happy Fasting everyone! :)
Yours sincerely,
Autmn Tears