Inferior Complex

This uncertainty feeling of mine is driving me crazy. I am tensed up. My 3 months semester break is not that worth at all. I organized some plans but those are a bit futile. Shame on me. Still struggling to sharpen my driving skills, a reckless cook who can't even fry an egg, & having some fights and arguments with dad which is the worst state of my life. I'm tired. Tired of being hypocrite. Why can't I just be me. But then people will start to bash me with harsh words like "hey, you're a girl, act like one! What a rude maiden!" Is this all my fault? I'm trying to be an angel who will please everyone but I just can't! Forcing me to disguise like a saint, oh hello I am sorry. They made me this way. They turn me into a revolting, disgusting, impolite young lady. I can't just blame myself 100%. The question is who are they? My life is too complicated after Mom passed away. Envious feeling of certain people towards my life is a laughable. They are not in my shoes and they won't fit it anyway. How can you wear a glass slipper when you are not even Cinderella? Tell me.