Peace be upon you, readers! Hey I'm back posting new entry for new year. Happy new year although it is kind of late 😂 The last post was in October 2017 after I had my proposal presentation. It was the hardest part I'd encountered and I almost gave up. Hey, there's always a rainbow after rain. Allah has planned something wonderful in the end that's why I am still alive survived from the previous months.
Here I am working in lab for my final year project. May Allah ease everything for me. To be honest I'm tired. Everyday I go to the lab working overtime. I just need to hang in there & I know I can do this in Shaa Allah. Miracle does happen for the last semester. He knows I'm struggling so hard yet he grands me excellent result for semester 7 final examination. I didn't expect much because 4th year life is super duper busy *I studied last minute & my brain hurts so much sometimes I just answered the possible answers that I guess they are logic lol 😂 with tons of assignment they made me shed into tears.
Apart from that, I just figured out I am caffeine intolerance. After midsem break, I had 3 tests & I wasn't finished studying so I ended up drinking coffee to stay awake. That night I couldn't sleep. I had difficulty in breathing & I was in a state of tachycardia 😷 my anxiety & stress levels increased rapidly leading to tremors. Luckily I had a blood test to figure out my health condition & it seems fine thank goodness! However, the Dr prescribed me with 20mg/day propanolol to reduce my anxiety. To be honest, I am so sad because I am away from my family & I have to take care of myself. I went to the Dr alone & figure out my health status alone it made me stressed out as I feel like nobody loves or cares me. That's because I'm stuck here in Johor & my family members are in Perak. However I know that they are aware about myself because we keep in touch on family WhatsApp group & sometimes I received their calls.
What makes me stressed more is about my lab work. I am a beginner & I have to start from scratch. I learnt from zero & got scolded while gaining knowledge. It hurts so much at the beginning but then I feel like I can cope with it as time goes by. Everything I learnt by myself, YouTube, research gate forum just name it. Luckily I have a great companion, a master student who helped me a lot. Thanks Kak Ina. May Allah repay your kindness 🌸
I think I could proudly say that I am mature now as I sacrifice my holiday *semester break for the sake of my future to graduate on time. I miss my family I really do but I have to bear just a little bit more & this nightmare will turn into a happy dream. I have faith in Allah SWT & I believe He will ease everything for me in Shaa Allah. Amin ya Rab!
Final year student,
Badik Chan Qowiyyyy 💪
