Tidak Produktif 😣

Salam guys. Hari ni tiba2 Badik rasa nak luah kekesalan & macam2 lagilah. Okay, Alhamdulillah almost 3 months kerja. First 2 months bahagian lab service which means kerja2 makmal. Memang susah hard core ade shift balik lambat kenkadang rasa nak give up but towards the end of the 2nd month I found myself transform into better person,why? Dulu ade masalah speed utk 1st month sampai kena panggil masuk meeting room jumpa Dr Wong and Cindy 😂 macam ade masalah discipline je lol 😂 tapi diberi peluang & yes, I can do it .I felt satisfied with my hardwork.


But then I need to attend UTM 61st convocation so I applied for leave around 4 days. Lab manager jumpa I & said I want you to train in office. It's up to your mentor to put you in IP or CS. Mula2 rasa happy sebab okay boleh balik office hour. Masuk2 je office, I got nothing to do. Entah rasa macam kena treat betul2 macam budak intern je. Dulu, company ade tawarkan kerja permanent so that's why dlm lab mmg kena treat macam staff, kerja mmg separuh nak mati 😅 dah 2 minggu kerja I hanyalah buat filing guys. Kau rasa?! Sangat tidak produktif. Fyi ni keje yg sepatutnya despatch boy buat. Tapi mentor suruh I buat jadi buatlah dgn redho. Macam mana nak isi monthly report untuk bulan ni sebab rasa macam tak belajar apa2. 5 perkara kot kena isi 😭


Korang mesti kata eh, tak bersyukur ke? Ye tahu kena bersyukur tapi I tak tahan hidup macam ni. Serious rasa macam tak dihargai makanya terdetik perasaan aku nak angkat kaki, nak apply kerja lain. Tolonglah ya Allah murahkan rezekiku. Amin 😭 Waktu ni lah tiba2 tengah sengkek takde duit. Ye hidup Aku mewah dulu tapi tak lah semewah orang yang betul2 Kaya tu. Term nya "berkemampuan" sebab dapat biasiswa JPA & tiap2 bulan Abah mesti masukkan duit. Memang tak pernah pun merasa nak ikat perut waktu zaman study kat UTM. Tengok kawan2 ikat perut makan Maggie adelah. Sekarang dgn allowance yg sikit, Lepas tu rasa macam company tak hargai value Kita, Badik Chan beli Maggie 2 packs guys! Dah berhari dinner maggie 😭 sehari at least habiskan RM 6 makan dekat kantin. Sebab nak jimat ni hujung Bulan sedihnyaaa 😭 my life turns 360 degrees!