Trying

Dear readers,

November,23rd

Assalamualaikum

It was a typical day. We had  UHAS class this morning & I thought that my group members were going to present our powerpoint assignment on Perlembagaan Malaysia dalam Perspektif Hubungan Etnik.It was totally wrong! 2 groups for 2 hours.ahaha heyyy,that's a long journey to go! & of course sleepy mode turned on.I'm so sorry to all the lecturers who had taught me these past few days during lecture as I could not have the strength to be awake and listen to your knowledgeable information about the subjects!

*I usually don't sleep in class >>> that is my principle but it turns out 360 degrees now.Argghh, I'm just ashamed with myself.How do I be good and improve myself?any idea? 3 weeks less or more to go before final examination. I don't know whether I am quite prepared or not. Having quizzes and tests at anytime during the school days made me want to puke sometimes. The title of "a university student" is beyond my expectation! It's a hectic life.I'm lifeless here :(

I can't imagine how medic students study for their on sake.You need to survive no matter what.I'll just pick a random example which is so much related to me, Kakyang a.k.a Sis Syamimi had gone through it and she's working in Taiping Hospital for 1 and a half years now if I am not mistaken. She suffers a lot. Until now, she always complains about it to my parents. It gave me goosebumps!I believe that whatever pathway you choose, it's not that easy to achieve your goal. It's not always a course which offered you with professional jobs is the most difficult.Every single subject either science,literature,account or the vocational subject has it's own level of difficulties which shows that life is challenging indeed.There is no way for you to take short cuts in chasing for success.

December, 5th
I had sent my JPA documents yesterday,4/12/2014 & for your information, it was a chaos for me. I didn't have a complete set of document to be given to the officers as I did not fill up the online form due to my hectic week with 2 tests.That was a huge problem!I tried to call the technical system a few times & luckily they answered.However, I still couldn't settle it as they couldn't open the online system for the public users as the due date was 3/12/2014.They asked me to call other section,which is the one who gives you the offer letter & I did call for more than 20 times I guess.It was so depressing when no one answered. I was about to cry but I told myself that Allah will help me. so, cheer up self! La Tahzan :(
I gathered all my courage to ask one of the officers, which is Mr Aris about this. He was my life savior! He contacted his friend to open the system only for me by giving my identity card number. I was so grateful to Allah SWT because my problem had been solved easily after so many hardships that I had gone through.All praises to Allah.


This is clearly proven that there's always a way to a problem. Don't ever give up.Nothing is really over until the moment you stop trying. Mabrouk for accepting this challenge! This gives a big impact to myself which reminds me to be alert when doing a task,improving the level of self esteem as I tend to communicate with high officers via mobile phones, gain a lot of courage to interact with strangers by sending an email and of course I learnt to be independent without relying on others as I solved this alone because my friends were busy with their documents too to be settled.



Yours sincerely,

Autumn Tears

Syukur

Assalamualaikum.

Alhamdulillah masih bernafas hari ini,
akhirnya semua program selesai, tunggu final je ni. Ya Allah, banyak yang nak kena cover. Study bukan mudah. Slow learner macam diri sendiri, memang menguji tahap kesabaran yang tinggi. Tambah2 pulak maths method 1 & statistics. Masih mempersoalkan tentang kewajipan 2 subjek tersebut sehingga kini.*Tabahlah wahai diri. Budak Bio memang kena study semua tu eh. Ingatkan dah major Bio ni memang goodbye maths! eh eh tak pulak T_T

"Allah SWT tidak akan menguji hambanya sebab Allah tahu kemampuan seorang hambanya untuk menghadapi ujian yang diberikan olehNya. Kuat!Semangat! Jangan putus asa, Adik. Mak dah doakan yang terbaik untuk adik sebelum ni. In shaa Allah, dipermudahkan segalanya. Kepahitan akan digantikan dengan manisnya madu.Seseungguhnya Allah sentiasa bersama dengan orang-orang yang bersabar"

Allah memang pujuk adik. Aufa baru sahaja dilahirkan. Kalau diberi kesempatan, kita akan berjumpa Aufa :3 Maksu Badik sibuk di Johor. Melayan perasaan sorang2 ja di sini.hewhew. Homesick tau.Rindu Mak sangat2.oh Mak, alhamdulillah rezeki daripada Allah SWT, adik dapat JPA Mak. Sebelum ni, Mak memang nak sangat adik dapat biasiswa kan,Alhamdulillah sangat2.Bolehlah lepas ni bayar PTPTN balik.Tapi, sekarang sedang serabut dengan borang-borang yang perlu diselesaikan. Ai maklumlah, maklumat saksi,penjamin,tandatangan itulah inilah,pening kepala Adik Mak.Tapi fikirkan masa hadapan semua tu tak perlu untuk merungut.Jangan merungut bak kata kakak usrah,in shaa Allah pengakhirannya semua indah.Doa kan senjata mukmin.

Kuatlah wahai diri.Penat dengan kuiz, test yang bila2 masa ja ada.Tak enjoy life pun kat sini walaupun sebenarnya memang dah banyak kali berjimba atau buat kerja gila.Beza betul dengan matrik.Kalau kat matrik terisi sungguh masa dengan pelajaran.Kat sini mcm banyak buang masa.Tak tahulah.Adik dah terima amanah untuk belajar jadi sepatutnya kena study betul-betul.Banggakan keluarga. Amanah jangan diambil enteng. Astaghfirullahalazim.Malunya dengan diri sendiri :(

Jangan pentingkan diri boleh tak??Ya Allah tolonglah hambamu ini.

Untung sungguh kakak-kakak dan abang.Semua sudah berkerjaya.Diri sendiri baru sahaja memulakan perjalanan hidup.Baru sem 1 dah rasa macam ehhh nak teroyok@ngobok sebab susah Allah je tahu.Down to earth tau.Stress dengan macam2 kerenah orang.Risau selalu buat ghibah kann*cukup2lah gossip.Buat dosa kering :( Nak transform jadi yang lebih baik perlukan istiqamah.Nih satu lagi, cabaran okay.Bila-bila masa je Allah boleh tarik nyawa ni. Diri masih terkapai-kapai mencari identiti. Beruntung jugak diri ni sebab semua adik beradik support kalau kewangan tak mencukupi.Alhamdulillah tapi sampai bila kan???Memang kena study betul2 lepas ni, hidup 60 tahun lagi bak kata Abah *kalau panjang umur laaah.

Kadang-kadang selalu fikir, hidup di dunia mati di akhirat.Kita bawa diri seorang-seorang ja lepas ni.Kat dunia pun dah nampak,contoh paling senang study lah kann.Exam semua jawab sendiri.Tak mainlah nak cheat bagai.Even kalau tolong orang pun, ingat dia nak tolong ke masa kita susah nanti?haa satu lagi ingat dosa.Cheating is bad!Lepas tu, paling ketara kerja apa in the future. Siapa nak tanggung perbelanjaan hidup?Harapkan abah,along,kakngah,kakyang??no no no. Itulah dia permainan duniawi.Sebenarnya sementara je hidup kat sini.Akhirat yang kekal.Tapi takkan nak kejar akhirat je kan.Both kena balance. Berat betul kalau refeleks balik diri pegang title Khalifah ni.

Kenapalah sekarang baru nak fikir masalah2 ni.Itulah namanya kematangan berfikir.A year older, a year wiser.

So, lepas ni kena sentiasa kuat.

"You refused to return to Him

but He still loves you.

So,he created a hardship

which made you turn to

Him"

Lillahitaala.*Betulkan niat. In shaa Allah. Allah sayang Adik!

Yours sincerely,

Autumn Tears  

Hari Terbuka Kolej Tun Razak UTM

Salam everyone!

Special dedication to all UTM students!
Do come to Kolej Tun Razak UTM on 13-15 Nov 2014.
Lots of activities will be held.It will be fun!
The more the merrier!

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Mid term break

Peace be upon you,

Dear readers,


My experience riding a night bus is typical. I am used to it after a month well known as a University Student (Mahasiswi). It was a bit tough yesterday before going back home as I had 2 quizzes which were Bioorganic Chemistry & Statistics. Alhamdulillah. He ease everything for me. However, I am not sure 100% that I am going to score well.huuuuu. It is a bless for me having a week mid term break.Great! A bunch of assignments to be accomplished before returning UTM. TESTS give me goosebumps! oh no, I will be having Mathematical Methods 1, Bioorganic Chemistry, Microbiology, Statistics & Malaysian Dynamics tests. Ya Allah, please help me, your servant. *I had my Biomolecules test last Monday :) 


Finally, I'm home relaxing myself at living room. Fatigue, I watched TV, my favourite channel, KBS World on Astro channel 392 - The Return of Superman. The cute baby twins made my day today! They are very cute and they just do what they want to do instead of listening to their dad.Funny! Kids- I miss my childhood moment because being a little kiddo, you don't have to think a lot of matters.Just be happy with your own life. That is what kids do! I realized that I'm a grown up now. And I have already faced the biggest challenge of my life, Mom went peacefully. I hope she is in heaven, In Shaa Allah, my prayers are always with you, Mom.


Too many things to be done within this week! I hope I can do all my lists, In Shaa Allah :) One of those is my assignments. hewhew. ahh, I borrowed a book - One True Thing from Perpustakaan Raja Zarith Sofiah, UTM. so, it's another mission, reading a book as the due date sending the novel falls on 27 of October if I am not mistaken. Study :/ no more honey moon I guess? dear self, please aim your target.study for the sake of Allah, Mom & Dad.Make them proud okay? My Lecturer is going to further her Post Doctoral soon and I am amazed! I hope I can follow her foot steps, one day in shaa Allah.Amin. Good luck Dr. Faezah! :) All the best Doctor!


I never thought what will I be in the future.As I stay here, UTM Allah shows me the clearer pathways after graduating Bachelor of Science in Biology. There are a lot of job prospects too although at first I was hesitating about this. huuuuu. So, Wan Sujaihah, set your goals. Bear in mind that Allah is the best planner after all. Go for dunya & akhirat. May both will be balanced, in shaa Allah. To my classmates, SMBB we are one, together we strive for excellence! Thank you for supporting me during my gloomy days. You guys are the best! *funny people I met e.g King of Selfie, nerdy , perfectionists, freaks but hey you guys are unique :) Those characteristics are fantastic! Just be as you are :D


Yours sincerely,  

Autumn Tears

Tenanglah Mak di sana :')

Perginya Mak pada 5/10/2014, Hari Raya Korban memberikan satu impak yang sangat besar buat diri dan keluarga. Nurizan binti Alang Sariah yang dulunya pendidik bangsa pergi menghadap seruan ilahi setelah 5 tahun bertarung nyawa melawan Penyakit hati (hepatitis c).Hanya mampu berdoa, itulah senjata mukmin, juga hadiah daripada anak-anak untuk pahala yang berpanjangan.Semoga arwah Mak tenang di sana hendaknya, dilapangkan & diterangi kuburnya, diampunkan segala dosanya serta ditempatkan di kalangan orang-orang beriman. Amin ya rabbi.

pedih,perit,pahit.3 P yang kini sentiasa menyelubungi diri.Gagahlah wahai!, tabahlah hati, sesungguhnya, ujian ini mematangkan diri.Tiada yang kekal di dunia melainkan Allah yang Esa.Berakhir sudah derita Mak. Pernah suatu ketika arwah bertanya,

"Kenapa mak tak baik-baik walaupun dah makan ubat?"

Ya Allah.apa yang harus dijawab?

Tiada ubat yang boleh menyembuhkan liver cirrhosis. Ya, para saintis masih mengkaji. Hanya ubat-ubatan yang mampu melambatkan proses pengerasan hati. APA?livovid?propanalol?nexium?vitamin b complex?lactul solution?Oh semua itu hanya untuk melembutkan hati yang sedang rancak mengeras. Kasihan arwah Mak. Sungguh. Terlalu banyak ammonia dalam badan. Constipated sehingga diberi 40ml lactulose! Sampaikan siang & malam tidak boleh dibezakan. She's not oriented. Solat, hanya mampu mengikut sekiranya diajar.Betapa seksanya arwah. Sedih jika dikenang semula. Setiap hari ambil darah.Bengkak di tangan alah bisa tegal biasa. Mengelembung, salah cucuk branula.jarum tak masuk urat. Plaster penuh ditampal di badan. Sakitnya arwah nak mengiring ke kiri ke kanan sekiranya sudah sampai masa untuk menukar pampers.

Apa yang boleh dibuat?Diri sendiri pun kadang-kadang tidak mampu untuk berbuat apa-apa.Sekadar menyuap makan, menukar pampers, memberi makan ubat,tidak mampu untuk merasai kesakitan yang dialami oleh arwah mak.Ya Allah, engkau perkenankan doaku, pertemukanlah aku dengan arwah mak semula di Jannah. Al-fatihah. Adik sayang mak! Budak nilah yang mengada-ngada, kadang-kadang selfish tetap manja & minta dimanjakan. Maaflah mak, kalau selama ini banyak menyusahkan mak. Tiap2 minggu waktu di KMPP, balik ke Kuala Kangsar, habis duit minyak & tol. Study week, Mak & Abah datang ambil pergi Ipoh. Habis matrik, Mak gagahkan juga datang dengan Abah. Shopping kat Jusco, mak terpaksa duduk tunggu Adik beli baju sorang-sorang. Tak galakkan mak beli anak patung lavender yang agak mahal untuk  bakal cucu mak di cameron. Ajak jugak mak tengok Frozen sama2 walaupun mak tengok separuh jalan je.Pergi Bangi attend wedding reception, pergi debond braces 17/6 sama tarikh dengan endoscope mak untuk observe ulcer *mak takut sangat* Lepas adik pakai retainer, adik bagitau tak selesa, Mak bagi kata0kata positif suruh pedulikan, kan nak gigi cantik?lepas tu, Adik jaga Kak Long seminggu, tak dapat jumpa mak, end up hari Jumaat tu, simptom hepatic enchephalopathy dah start kat mak.Mak admitted wad 3027A pantai hospital Ipoh.6 hari mak kat hospital. Her health deteriorates then.

Dr Tan cakap, mak tak tahan sampai setahun.Terkedu! Diam je, bagitau Abah & yang lain.Iya, ajal di tangan Allah.kita tak tahu.wallahualam.bulan puasa, mak ke selayang, jumpa specialist.3 hari admitted.tapi mak gembira sangat dapat discharge.Mak jalan sendiri walaupun lambat!Hari Raya Aidilfitri, Mak macam biasalah sakitnya.mengerang.3/8/14, pagi tu, mak nampak sihat sangat2.alhamdulillah.Kakcik nak pulang ke Adelaide. Mak mampu pakai baju sendiri.Ceria sungguh!Tak sangka malam 3/8 lebih kurang pkl 11 malam, mak tak mampu lelap sehingga keesokannya.Kami bawa mak naik ambulance ke hospital permaisuri bainun.2 minggu mak dalam wad.cadangnya 12/8 adik nak ke Acheh, terpaksa dibatalkan.Takpa, demi mak!Dapat tahu bakal melapor diri ke UTM, jauhnya Johor, berpisah dengan mak lepas ni. Mak juga terkejut.tapi apakan daya.Menuntut ilmu itu suatu kewajipan.Semua urusan masuk Uni, buat sendiri.Terasa sangat sedih sebab masa masuk matrik maklah orang kuat beli barang & baju.Hari nak pergi Johor, mak kurang baik.Mengerang, nangis2 atas katil bilik belakang.Adik cium mak & salam begitu sahaja, terus Along bawak pergi Selayang.Dari Selayang KakNgah & Abang Ngah hantar ke UTM.

3 minggu sebagai mahasiswi,dapat panggilan daripada Abah yang mengatakan Mak koma, ya Allah!13/9/14 mak masuk hospital.Apalagi, buat surat rasmi hantar ke pensyarah.seminggu ponteng!Mak bangun dari koma lepas Adik balik.That is a miracle!Alhamdulillah.seminggu tu jugak adik jaga mak.tukar shift dengan kakcik.2 minggu adik sambung study balik.Raya Haji adik balik, dapat tau mak masuk hospital seminggu sebelum raya haji.terus ke Taiping.Abah ambil dari KFC simpang Taiping.Pagi tu, Mak sihat sikit.Mak sebut"Adikkk" ya Allah sayangnya aku pada mak.Dua hari Jaga mak.sampai sabtu, 4/10/2014.petang samapai 5/10/2014 kak ngah jaga.Kesihatan mak merosot lepas tu.rupanya dah sampai ajal Mak.Innalillahiwainnalillahirajiun.

Homesick

Dear readers,
Peace be upon you.

Alhamdulillah, I am fine staying in Skudai, Johor which is more than 100 miles away from my hometown, Kuala Kangsar, Perak. 2 weeks in UTM gone blown by the wind like dusts. My first class was a bit shocking. No lectures for 2 classes and fortunately, Prof Dr Mohamad taught me Mathematical Methods 1 on that specific day. I was just like why do I have to face maths again, thought that taking Biology as my major subject would be okay without confronting x and y solving problems.(algebra, calculus and etc)


HOMESICK. I miss Mom and Dad, my cats, my siblings - Kak Yang, Kak Ngah, Kak Cik & Along. Feeling lonely, I am so sick of it * I plan to buy bus tickets for the upcoming AidilAdha. It was my biggest mistake confirming a bus ticket from Kuala Kangsar to Johor Bahru on 6th October 2014 which is on Monday because I have classes on that date! I can't refund the ticket but I can't let it burnt like that. I don't think that this is silly as I take this situation seriously. I have been wandering around the Management Faculty to find my UHAS Malaysian Dynamic lecturer but he was on leave. Then I met Dr Norahim and discuss about this problem.


Truanting is not my style. I am responsible to attend my lectures and classes but as what my personal adviser said must be considered too.He said that what can I do instead of truanting. Hmmm, I am a new University  student and I am completely loss in dealing with things like this.I hope Allah SWT helps me within these 4 years to be able to fulfill my dreams by obtaining a high distinction degree. What an enormous problem! 


Staying here is fun too.Alhamdulillah as I am still able to breathe, enjoying these beautiful greenery scenes in UTM and making friends with others. I am trying really hard to adapt this situation. May Allah ease everything for me. Ameen ya Rabb!



Yours sincerely,


Autumn Tears

Degree

Dear readers,
Peace be upon you :3

The UPU result had been released 4 days ago and it was not a disappointment. To my surprise I was offered to further my degree in Bachelor of Science in Biology which is my interest in a local university of Malaysia which is UTM Skudai, Johor (Universiti Teknologi Malaysia). Congratulations, Wan Sujaihah! hehe :)

All praises to Allah! If Allah wills, I will be going to enroll as a degree student on 31st August 2014. May He ease everything for me. Amin ya Rabbi!! especially doing the preparation * I am busy recently staying in a hospital for more than 1 week* Mom is going to be recovered soon. In shaa Allah. I shall be at home tomorrow as I am at Along's house in Ipoh. 

yeah, I need to open SSPN account as soon as possible * I might choose Cimb Bank because I would like to make Cimb Clicks. PTPN pin number can be bought at BSN bank nearby by only RM 5.I hope I manage to get scholarship for this time .Amin. I am praying for JPA :D Applying for PTPTN is a backup for paying my study fees and supplying my pocket money. If I were chosen by any scholarships, cutting off the PTPN is another solution. So, wish me luck okay :3


My first thought:

I was at 8C Medical Ward Class 1 in Hospital Raja Permaisuri Bainun Ipoh. Accompanying mom is my duty as a loyal daughter. I learnt to take care of people through these whole weeks experience. It was tiring and I almost exhausted. I couldn't sleep at night. Comforting Mom when she felt scared-well, I am used to it. We, dad, Abah and my big brother, Along took shifts to take a look after Mom.I got night shift which starts at 6.30 p.m until 11 a.m on the next day. Mom was hospitalized since 5th August 2014 until today,15th August 2014, 10 days after she is discharged. Alhamdulillah.

It was 10 a.m in the morning and Mom was fasting since 12 midnight. She was doing her scope at the endoscopy unit.It took us about half an hour waiting for her.After reaching Ward Dahlia which is near the Royal Ward (Wad Diraja) I was lucky to see how does it look inside just now before Mom was discharged*seriously, it is enormous!and magnificent too.Princess mood is on.hehe It was nearly 12 noon. I bought mobile data earlier at dawn after sponging Mom and tried to open the UPU website.However it seemed ridiculous because there was no 4G line and the packet data was like a snail! Manual checking! go SMS! I wrote my ic number and sent to 15888.


hurm 15 minutes were gone.I checked the message details-but still not requested. Hedwigs theme gave me goosebumps as a new message was in the inbox;

Tahniah.Anda Ditawarkan Program TS02 di UTM. 

Sila rujuk www.upu.moe.gov.my untuk maklumat lanjut.

Abah was beside me. I told him.then I straightly told my family members in whatsapp group-The Tsukushies Unite!Everybody was shocked because it is too far from Perak, my hometown. Johor oh Johor. Now it is the time for me to be independent.*sigh T___T I don't have any choices. At least a friend of mine, rpkian and kmppian, Lena is in the same boat with the same course as mine!

I don't know.still kind of blur a bit.But I'm having a hard time before this so I guess that I don't have any feelings to describe about it.I accept the fate as I know Allah knows the best for me. May I pass my degree with High distinction! Amin ya Rabbi.So, welcome to University life, Badik. You are a grown up now.HAHA :D *I know but I still want to act like a kiddo. 

Yours Sincerely,

Autumn Tears

Syawal

Assalamualaikum readers! May peace be upon you :)

Alhamdulillah, finally we have reached Syawal and I appreciate this chance to write a latest entry today which is the sixth day of Syawal 1435 H. As I grow up day by day, I have been thinking a lot of matters lately and these made me open up my eyes as it shows how hard and challenging life can be. I am the youngest child in my family and it is my nature to be like some sort of spoil brats. I don't usually do the house chores because I enjoy living alone watching cartoons and playing games or even mind my own business. However, after knowing Mom's unstable condition, I am trying to be a persistent person. Mom is very fortunate to have wonderful prince and princesses who would stand by her and support her no matter what happens. And I am grateful to be one of her daughters. She is lucky to have Abah as her Imam too. Abah is the leader of the family.I am totally amazed with his amazing cooking skills to prepare diet dishes for Mom! When September approaches, I will be away from my family again. As the saying goes, study comes first, I hope I can cope well with my studies in University.Amin.



Kak Cik will be going back to Adelaide tomorrow. She will catch a train from Ipoh at 5.00 a.m on the next day to arrive KL Sentral. It is a bit sad knowing that we will only send her to Ipoh instead of Kuala Lumpur International Airport 2. I admit that all the highway roads are congested! We are only taking a risk driving from Kuala Kangsar, Perak to Kuala Lumpur during this Raya Season. We might stuck in a traffic jam for hours. That is suffocating for me! So, just a simple wish from me, Adik : Study well, dear Purplish Kak Cik. I know you can do it.Let the rest decided by Allah SWT. Just pray like the one I used to tell you before.Mention your good deeds* In Shaa Allah He will ease everything for you :3 Pray before departing. Pray during on board. Pray after arrival. Pray for your journey. Just pray to be safe. oh, and Good luck for BioChemistry Paper. Just do it! Hit it, bash it until you satisfied okay? hehe :D lol



The matured me is born. No wonder, aunties and uncles won't give "duit raya" anymore. Just certain of them gave money to me.hehe. I'm 19teen. The late teens. I can't believe that although I have been rubbing my eyes a few times!I am turning 20 years old next year, 2015. oh my!! * "Adik besar sudah mari.Lu goyang apa?" *crying & sobbing under pillows*  It's okay. I can tolerate with this situation but I can't for last year. Hey, according to Dewan Bahasa & Pustaka, Children can be defined as the age of 1 until 21, so in conclusion I am still a child! Kak Cik Purplish is also considered as a kiddo! Lol. this is very funny!!! HAHHAA :D *okay sorry if my statement is wrong: I guess that it is quite right because I take those words from Jejaka Idaman Malaya, the guy who is a debater from SMK bla bla * because I forget * during 2008 VS with the debaters from SMK Raja Perempuan Kelsom for Debat Bahasa Melayu.hehe. My bad if I am wrong!



This Syawal is very different from the years back. Maybe due to the global issues such as Gaza under attack, where all the Palestinians are not knowing whether they are alive or dead and the breaking news which breaks my fragile heart is MH17, Malaysians are mourning for this tragic accident. Ya Allah please save this ummah! I feel so sad to think about those people who are unfortunate. What makes me realized more is to be grateful living in a peace country, Malaysia. I feel more lucky to be a daughter of my parents and I don't mind being a commoner because there are a lot of people suffering from poverty rather than me. Alhamdulillah for everything! Thank you, Allah! I hope the Uncle, the one that Kak Yang saw during Ramadhan in The Store Mall will be blessed. May he lives longer and stay healthy.This Uncle makes me think twice about my fate because he is not afford to buy branded things for Eidulfitri. I feel like crying T__T Last but not least, I hope everyone is enjoying this month of Syawal. Have a blast year ahead! May all our good deeds be taken and counted during Ramadhan Mubarak. Amin Ya Rabbi! :)



Today's post is kind of short.Sorry for this update entry. I don't have a lot of ideas to write.hehe :B
Farewell!



Yours sincerely,

Autumn Tears 

Rindu Life Matriks

Kesayangan. My lovelies!

Dear readers,

Peace be upon you :)

How is it going guys? Fine during this Ramadan Mubarak? 4 days left before the upcoming Eidulfitri. The day of our victory! Alhamdulillah. All praises to Allah SWT. 

I have been so busy recently. Tired of doing the chores, of course! But I hope this challenge given by Allah will train me to be a loyal daughter for my parents. It is indeed making me realized that we, as caliphs have to live to the fullest by aiming not only dunya but both dunya and akhirat. We do not know when is the right time to be returned to Him so, we have to prepare ourselves by doing good deeds as much as we can. Based on the global issues nowadays, my heart achenes so much! Please save Gaza and help the Palestinians. The mystery of MH370 is not resolved yet and to my surprise MAS airplane, MH17 was crashed!

O Allah, please help us, I humbly send my prayers to Allah the Almighty :'(

He's Al-Faatir, the creator. We, caliphs belong to Allah and verily onto Him shall we return.

Okay, I miss my life in matriculation or specifically Penang Matriculation College. Yeah, I have been there as a science student for a year. My sis, Kakcik asked me, which phase that I like the most. Definitely my life as as a matriculation student! HAHA :D  I told her that. Well, I am different from others,* I think so because people usually miss their school life.Me? I don't know.   It is an honor for me when I was appointed to be the Head Girl of SMK Raja Perempuan Kelsom, Kuala Kangsar for 2012 session but frankly speaking I don't really admire my school too much. hehe. Don't be mad rpkians! Maybe this is because my personality which is introvert and I do not have a good rapport with the staffs and teachers plus juniors. Certain teachers that I adore only are the ones that I used to feel comfortable with but I don't speak much too with them. I speak when is needed because I am not a talkative person!

I become annoying and talkative with people I love :) hey,that's a fact! Wan Sujaihah's fact :D I don't think  science is an interesting subject in school especially Physics. well, I feel like an idiot answering 3 Physics papers for SPM without knowing what the questions actually want! erghhhhh!!! I am just lucky to score B in Physics. fuuuh! And I feel so grateful to be one of the KMPPians for 2013/2014 session because the lecturers taught me how to understand Science subjects better and I am madly in love with Chemistry during my 2nd semester because Miss Wong is the best teacher ever in the world! hehe Thank you for the knowledge teacher. I miss you :) Seriously, a lot of lesson and moral values can be discovered in KMPP.* and the most important thing is Module 3 Science students learn Computer Science which is something new and good bye Physics in my life!* For your information, I am an exchange module student. Because I really hate Physics, I applied for the module exchange from H3P5 to K3P4 :3 

I learn to be independent although the ugly truth is I was homesick for the first 6 months which is the 1st semester. I can't believe how weak I was before, crying all the time and always confront with the biggest fear which is STRESS! My roommates Ain, Faz & Mimi are the ones who enlighten my days. They always comfort me when nobody is going to fetch me home to Kuala Kangsar, Perak my hometown. At least, we did activities like other students do such as watching movies and marathon Korean dramas! hehe I have cool buddies in K3P4. We are just like a one big family :D I miss them. Everybody has their own specialties and this make us unique, hey! We live while we're young! HAHA. The most awesome memory is when we participated in a choir competition!Everybody tried their best. It didn't matter if we do not have beautiful voices but at least we tried to sing loudly with the correct pronunciation! I know sometimes I am moody especially during the choir practice. Just imagine how busy I am, that night, we had to go for Chemistry extra class from 8 p.m until 10 p.m. Then, we continued singing "One Thing" and "Live While We're Young" by One Direction until 11 p.m.

After that, light off announcement  was heard. and we must go back to our niche, me at A3-2-1 (Sri Ixora) That was very tremendous!! and my tutorials were not finished but I don't remember what did I do because I don't think I was scolded by the teachers! hehe and the best part is the next day was quizzes for Biology and Science Computer! Oh Crap!!!! I just accept the fate.  Funny but totally a mental torture! *,,* I remember the time 1 week before the final examination, a couple of days before our study week, we met at the basketball court making a big circle after Isyak.Each of us said sorry, apologise and confess everything for this one year friendship. It was so sad and I almost cried. We are strangers at first but a bond suddenly developed as time goes by. I hope this bond is everlasting! That night after Biology papers, which is the last paper, we met again. An enormous cirlce is made again. A4 papers were passed to each other. We jot down about our impressions toward our K3P4 members. We played truth or dare. Crazy moments back then.lol! I was asked whether I fall in love with a guy- I chose  "truth" instead of dare. HAHA 

The UPU result is just around the corner. We will be going different pathways after this. All the best my sporting & cool K3P4 members! May Allah bless us  :D Amin. Do the best and let the past be past. Just a word from, Wan Comel : Keep Moving Forward!

Love you guys so much! :)

Lab Coat Day :D

Yours sincerely,   

Wan :3

Sayang Abah!

Assalamualaikum pembaca sekalian! :D

Salam Ramadhan Mubarak :)

Yeay, entri kali ini dalam bahasa ibunda kerana penulis inginkan suasana yang santai.hehe. Pedulikan tatabahasa yang salah.Gaya penulisan kali ini lebih kepada percakapan Bahasa Melayu dalam kehidupan seharian.Semoga terhibur dan mudah untuk memahami cerita yang ingin disampaikan oleh penulis :3

Okay, sayang abah!hoho. Abahlah hero, orang kuat dalam famili, pendidik *abah cikgu* dan macam2 lagilah! Walaupun Abah kite dah menginjak usia 60-an tapi abah tetap kuat. Boleh lagi memandu dan buat kerja2 org muda.Cayalah abah. Hero Malaya niiii. Dah2 cukup2 sudah memuji :P

Hari ni, macam biasa abah ke pasar untuk membeli  barang dapur. Bila dah balik, tiba2 je abah tanya

 " Adik, ingat lagi tak anak kawan abah ni. Dia dah nak pergi Nottingham.Mak dia tanya Adik sekarang buat apa. Abah ckp la tengah tunggu nak masuk Uni "

" Oh. ingat2.Wah untung la dia.Amik kursus apa?? " aku membalas.

" Entahlah. Abah tak tanya pulak. Medik kot. Eh takpe, nanti adik pergi Monash ye. Mak Uda cakap keluaran Monash hebat2 belaka" bersungguh-sungguh Abah menyatakan hasrat di hati.

" Alaa Abah.Takde rezeki la Adik nak ke Aussie. Tuu, salahkan scholar, takmo bagi adik pergi interview.huhu.Abah sedih ke Adik tak daapat sambung study ke luar negara?" saja bagi soalan cepu emas!

" Abah sedih " jawab Abah.

Eh2 Abah aku ni, sian pulak aku rasa. Takpa lah Abah rezeki org masing2. Dari dulu lagi, nak suhh pegi Ottawa, Canada, hajat tak kesampaian. Masa study week dulu, ada peluang nak dapat Scholar MyBrainSc, tapi tak lepas pulak Ujian Permata Pintar UKM 2. Bapak pening aku jawab soalan IQ tu. Siap Abah dan Mak amik kat KMPP esoknya terus ke Ipoh jawab kat Sekolah Tunku Abdul Rahman. Lepas tu hantar balik ke Penang.Essok paginya baru aku dapat balik A3.2.1 study balik semua subjek yg dah terbengkalai buat 2,3 hari. Adoi.*tepuk kepala.

Memang besar pengorbanan Abah aku ni. Belum cerita Mami lagi.ish2. Sian Mami, berjuang melawan penyakitnya itu. Semoga Allah panjangkan umur kedua orang tuaku, murahkan rezeki mereka dari segi kesihatan, kewangan, kebahagiaan dan paling penting semoga dapat  berjumpa dengan mereka kembali di Jannah! Amin ya Rabbi! :) Takpe Abah, teruskanlah berdoa. Tambah2 pulak dalam bulan Ramadhan ni kan. Lepas ni nak keluar result UPU/USM. Semoga kursus yang Allah dah tetapkan untuk Adik adalah yang terbaik di mana terdapat banyak peluang kerjaya dan dijanjikan gaji yang lumayan!

Nanti bolehlah Adik belanja Abah & Mami macam yang Kakngah & Kakyang selalu buat.hehe. Tak lupa juga boleh belanja sekali kakak2ku yang sporting + Abg aku yg sorg tu. Okay! Deal. Jangan lupa doakan kejayaan Adik ye. Amin :D Saya sayang keluarga Meor! wuwuwuuw * drum rolls * Abah kalau nak sangat Adik gi sambung oversea satu hari nanti doakan Adik selalu ye. Manalah tau, kot2 dapat sambung Master or PHD.haa Abah boleh ikut Adik! Nanti buat pernigaan Nasi Ayam kat sana. Seronok students Malaysia nanti.hehe :3 Haa satu lagi, mintak2 la dapat biasiswa. Amin.

Serious beribu2 ringgit banyak habis semata2 perbelanjaan perubatan. Adik tahu kita ni commoners je. Kalaulah kaya, dah lama boleh je jadi private student fly sekarang jugak! HAHA Eh angan2 yang tak kesampaian je tuh. Takpe nanti Adik study rajin2 tau. Biar dapat 4 flat setiap sem.Amin. Baru boleh jadi best student. Nnt ade je laa org nak taja gi sambung oversea.hehe 

Don't worry Abah. Be happy as always. I love you! :* You are our joker in Meor's family. May Allah bless you with His endless blessing! It's okay, 2 daughters of yours had been studied in Manipal & Adelaide. Me? Only Allah knows. If Allah wills, I'll be pursuing my next level in this wide world somewhere. But for now, Malaysia is my chosen country, tanah tumpah darahku! Ada la rezeki kita nanti. Semoga Abah sihat selalu.

Love,

Adik.

Sentap

Dear readers,
Peace be upon you.


Hello everyone. Nice meeting you again on Greatest Story Ever Told. This is my first post in July. Ramadhan Mubarak falls in this month of July 2014. Alhamdulillah, all praises to Allah SWT for giving the greatest gift for Muslims to repent or seek for forgiveness and most definitely collecting rewards due to the good deeds! Congratulations for fasting. May Allah ease everything especially to refrain from hunger and thirst.

I will not be posting a new entry without having a sizzling news to tell. So, can you guess what kind of story will be written today? Okay, although we have reached the month of Barakah, I don't think it is wrong to criticize something. As for me, it is good to tell the truth instead of keeping it as a secret which leads you to be regret for facing it alone without gaining advice or sharing the problems to the others.

I really hate someone who does not value friendship. I admit that I am an introvert person and I usually face some difficulties to mingle with other people. I do have friends but not many. I treasure my friends like my family too although priorities come first for family members. I have a friend. A so called friend. She is too good to be true. She is nice, clever and petite. I love being around her but she was meant to be one of the SBP students. We keep in touch on the social media. She always congratulates me when I perform well in my studies. 

We both scored straight A's in PMR 2010. Straight A's students usually pursue their next level in Science stream and so do I. While SBP students will definitely be pursuing their studies in Science stream. We are both pure science students. At the age of 16teen, I found myself an identity confusion. This is all because of Physics, Chemistry, Biology and Additional Mathematics! I could not perform well like I always did the 3 years back in secondary school. She was doing good in her boarding school. I felt envy for the first time but I know I had to get rid of this feeling.

It was SPM trial examination for 2012. I did my best and I know she can do way better than me. The exam was over. She sent me a message on facebook asking about my grades. There, I know I found something wrong about her. She was not like the one I used to know before. Maybe she thinks that she is too great and genius ==' Although she does not boasting about her excellent achievements, she does not want to stay longer in our long conversation.

21/3/2013, the date which announced the SPM result for 2012. I got 7A's and 2B's. I feel grateful too although  I didn't get straight A's. She does not text me like she usually did. No messages from her until now. We do not keep in touch. I stalked her facebook profile. She scored straight A's! To my surprise, she manages to further her studies in Jordan. However, I don't know what scholarship and course that she's into. Maybe medicine but never mind. I was informed that she was studying in UTP before pursuing in oversea university. There is no relation between  an engineering course that she studied before and medicine. There is a contrast there!

It is okay my dear friend for doing this to me. Stay happy with your current life because I am happy with my life now without you. I am not stupid, for your information. I manage myself to finish my one year science matriculation program. Science stream is not bad after all although I found myself an identity confusion before. Don't ever find or talk to me when you need me someday because I never forget what you had done to me unless  you say sorry and apologize. I may be good but I will never be fooled again.


Yours sincerely,   

Autumn Tears

Destined

Dear readers,

Peace be upon you :3
Regarding the title, what kind of entry should I write?Well, to tell the truth, it is all about my life after I ended my matriculation program. Before swapping my story, I've came across with this : How to be popular? specifically, being acknowledged by other people form all walks of life, world wide just by creating blog? HAHA I look like a desperate person! It is not what you think dudes, calm down okay! hehe. I wonder?? hurm. Because, a couple of days ago, my practicum mate, Khai asked me to shed him some light on blogging and that kind of stuffs. So, as a blogger for 5 years, why not I give him some help. Amateurs must learn from the experts,right? HAHA Just now, I was blog-walking and I found some interesting blogs. and hey, their followers, Masha Allah, more than 50 K. Can you believe that? sobbing. Sister FL, or Fatin Liyana, how can I be like you- feeling down to earth. Google this by yourself :

http://honeykoyuki.blogspot.com/

Before we start talking nonsense and so on, let us straight to the point, The main idea of this post today :)

That is just a piece of my mind. I still remember when I was frustrated (*menonggeng) after my PSPM 1 result which is so-so CGPA 3.68 for the first semester and I wrote that on the 1st January of 2014. woahh.

I know Allah SWT has something special for me in the end. And maybe I am motivated by friends, roommates and of course Mom and Dad, siblings to move on and let go of the past. As a result, I struggle hard for my 2nd semester and it turned out well but not as high as expected which is only CGPA 3.93 for my PSPM 2. So, basically calculated my overall pointer for my 1 year Science Matriculation Program is 3.68 + 3.93 then divide by 2 to calculate the average pointer equals to 3.8 which is okay, I am grateful because JPA's minimum requirement is CGPA 3.75. I am way up high only 0.05! HAHA- Hopefully for this time, Allah SWT grants my d'ua. Amin. I really need scholarship, indeed- feeling meh_

I need to improve myself before pursuing my degree in the month of September.Wake me up when September comes.hehe Why? Because, I am still lacking of cooking skills. I admit that! How am I supposed to get married?EH- out of sudden! No. How am I going to be independent? That's it okay! Don't get me wrong with the statement "married" It is not the right time yet!HAHA. Lucky me when I stayed in Ipoh with my sister in law, I cooked by myself some simple dishes such as Chicken soup with macaroni, chicken fillet seasoned with turmeric, chicken fillet with oyster sauce and my super duper omelette creamy mayo!I am an amateur in cooking but I will never stop trying unless I quit. No one in my family is a quitter including me.(ye ke?) 

Next, I am still scared to drive. Pathetic me :( *crying. What's the point of having a license? but I never drive since I finished Matriculation? Well, there are two manual cars owned by my parents and they don't mind letting me use the cars.Manual??erm, I do not have the chance to learn automatic cars yet- No automatic cars at my house unless Sister Syakira brings her auto Proton Saga and Sis Syamimi brings her auto Almera home. Kancil is just the right choice for me to learn driving.But I don't remember the last time I drive a car. Maybe 2 or 3 times after I passed JPJ driving test. and that is a year ago!! *_*

Arggh I think that I am just a spoil brat :/ because these things can't be handled by me easily. Wake up, Wan Sujaihah! You are not a baby anymore. You are 19teen!!*sad. Dad and Mom are getting older.I can't rely on them too much.I need the courage to improve myself better than yesterday and before. Mom is not feeling well and the house is like a chaos! Who else should be a maid without payment?- That would be me. huhu. nahh it is okay, after all I am freaking free like a bird! 3 months to go for holidays, brothers and sisters. Wish me luck then! and oh, pray for my enrollment in University :) and scholarship too :* May Allah shower you with His endless blessings! Amin.

Yours sincerely,   

Autumn Tears

Mentaliti Masyarakat

Peace be upon you, readers!

While I was enjoying my breakfast at a stall with my parents, out of the blue an old man probably having the same or older age than dad approached us and started chatting with dad. He ordered some food and sat near our table. Dad was having fun talking to him. He asked me where did I studied.

"Adik belajar di mana?"asked the uncle. "Oh, saya baru tamat pengajian satu tahun Matrikulasi Pulau Pinang" I responded. "Haa 4 flat ke??" he added. "Taklah pakcik, 3.68 sahaja" I replied.

"Kenapa tak dapat 4 flat?apa lah. Bukan belajar satu tahun saje?Dah satu tahun tu patutnya score exam. Ini tidak" he criticized with a sarcastic voice.

I was shocked.But what should I say instead of giving a big fake smile to him. This makes me get mad. Our Asian culture is not supportive at all! At least this uncle should give me some courage and motivates me to score 4 flat but as you can see he criticized me and  made me look down on myself! This is definitely a big difference with the Western culture which I usually get to know that the people are always being supportive by saying "well done! good job! you can do better next time :) or congratulations!"

Oh dear uncle, why is it so hard for you to say simple words like that? I hope you realized as soon as possible. Just a suggestion, why don't you put yourself in my shoes? It's not as easy as a pie to score with flying colours in any courses especially in science stream. Just imagine how much should you spend your hours dating with books. What if you don't understand certain topics?It's stressful you know? You don't know what it's like. So, welcome to my life my dearest Uncle! =_=

Our Asian parents are usually boasting about their children's achievement in examination and nowadays trend is definitely where is your son/daughter pursuing his or her degree.Is it foreign university or local university? If your child gets to be accepted in foreign university, everybody is getting excited  by giving compliments and etc such as wow!that's cool and awesome.when will he/she fly.what's the name of the university. I am so proud of your son/daughter's achievement. How about local university?oh really. good luck then. well, that's all?? -,- oh come on!

I would like to say that either foreign or local university, it is just the same! The courses offered are all the same!Either you study in Malaysia or other countries, if you study Medicine then the others are also studying Medicine. Is there any difference? Yes you might say there is because there are four seasons in Europe meanwhile tropical season in Malaysia. Please, Allah SWT had created humans from all walks of life. Although we don't have the same nation, religion, race we have the same fluid flowing in our veins which is known as blood which is also the same isn't it?

I would like to justify that people should change their negative perspectives. Please grow up and be an optimist. No matter who you are, no matter where you are,we are alike. Please view at different angles when seeing or discussing something. I hope you can get the messages from my points of view. Please be noted.

Yours sincerely,

Autumn Tears

Why me?

Dear readers,

Peace be upon you.

Hey, I am waiting for my UPU result. May Allah SWT  grant my du'a to be able accepted in one of the Universities in Malaysia since I don't have that so called 'good' luck to go for an interview for MyBrainSc scholarship.For your information, you might regret by not choosing me :P I have the qualifications that are needed *I am complimenting myself * It is worth having me okay! haha. Please ya Allah, please let my pointer pass for this time to apply for JPA Scholarship >_<  Amin. Yeah I need to hunt for scholarships, I don't want to be a big burden for my parents. Furthering studies in the next level costs a lot! Although my parents can afford it but I don't like it. I need to show my abilities too in order to get any scholarships. I seek for your help, Allah the Mighty :')

It is kind of stressful day today too. As dad said " Adik ada power" okay, what does it mean? It means that I have a power that attracts people around me, I mean my family members. Everybody needs me. It seems that they can't live without me :P so, why me?

The first reason is : Dad needs me to help him in the orchard. As I posted in the previous entry about my dad is running an oil palm plantation in our orchard, my strength is needed indeed.

Next: Mom is not feeling well since I was 14teen. She needs me beside her to look after her. Well I am used to it.After all, mom raised me for 19 years so it does not bother me either.

Along: He's working abroad this time. He needs my help to look after Kak Long. Just a week. Bro is closer with me than the other siblings. Getting help from others might be a little awkward?haha *just kidding

Kak Ngah: I had worked with her during my 2nd semester to help secondary students for English who will be sitting for SPM 2014. I love being a tutor :) I might see them again on 16/17  May however this dates clash with Kak Yang's vacation day. I guess that I will do some charity works this time rather than indulging myself with fun activities during Kak Yang's vacation.

Kak Yang: She has been stressed out recently. It is hard to be an intern in Taiping Hospital. All I can do is only pray for her. She'll be sitting for her medical examination before pursuing her next posting in surgery.She needs her own space and a vacation. She wants me to tag along. I don't mind but I have to help Kak Ngah with the charity works. I am so sorry dear sis.

Kak Cik: This person seems okay. She does not need any helps from me I guess. hehe. I hope she is in the pink of health in Aussie. Hey, we had face-time on iPhone just now :3 It is good to hear Elsa's purring. oh how I wish to go to Adelaide someday. Please let my dream come true ya Allah :D

Having discussed the matter above, it is clearly proven that I am needed by everyone in my family :P This might due to my characteristics which are loyal, good and hardworking xD That's all I can conclude.

Farewell everyone!

Yours sincerely, 

Autumn Tears

Aku & KMPP

Assalamualaikum pembaca sekalian :)

Alhamdulillah, akhirnya tamat sudah pengajianku selama satu tahun di Matrikulasi Pulau Pinang sebagai pelajar aliran sains. Okay tengok ni sat :

My ex- Practicum K3P4 *me in the middle wearing a dark violet scarf*

Kepada adik2 yang mendapat tawaran ke matrikulasi, tahniah dan semoga berjaya di matrik ye! Syok sebenarnya kalau dapat KMPP. Walaubagaimanapun, still jangan biarkan sifat malas menguasai diri anda sebab malas itu membunuh. Nanti tak pasal2 kecundang di tengah jalan *ini yang paling menggerunkan*

Kalau dah dapat matrik, first sekali mesti set minda untuk study elok2. Bukan apa, matrik ialah salah satu institusi yang macam fast track program sebab kita dok setahun je dik. Lain lah kalau ditawarkan untuk masuk 2 tahun. Bagi adik2 yang dapat program 1 tahun, korang jangan lepaskan peluang ni. Jangan main2 & ambil mudah dalam semua perkara.*dengar nasihat senior ni :P Ramai yang buat endah tak endah tu selalunya ditawarkan ke PDT (Program 2 Tahun) @ istilah "tendang"/keluar dari Matrikulasi,

Akak kat sini memangselalu stress,haha.Tutorial +lab report bertimbun-timbun.Tiap2 hari kita akan belajar benda baru.Kalau sekali tak faham jangan biarkan anda terus sesat.Buat sesuatu sebelum terlambat.Ini serious!Lecturer@cikgu kat sini sangat membantu.Tak faham je boleh jumpa,Jangan segan.Tapi sebelum jumpa try fahamkan dulu.Selalunya cikgu akan tanya soalan sebelum kita nak tanya,haha,Kalau tak nak kena marah @ sebagainya be prepared ye.Prepare yourself first!Tutorial pastikan siap.Yang tak tahu boleh tanya cikgu kat "pentat" *bangunan pentadbiran @ office cikgu.Kalau darurat,tak pe kot cuma takut sikit la masa tutorial session kot2 kena panggil jawab kat depan or tulis jawapan kat whiteboard.Buku past year nanti semuaa orang akan dapat. Buatlah supaya dapat memantapkan pehamahaman adik2. Macam akak dulu, lecturer Chinese math, suruh hantar past year + tutorial setiap kali hbis chapter.aishh susah kot =_= banyak kerja tapi nak buat macam mana. Terpaksa pandai agih masa.

Bukan maths je, cikgu tutorial kimia pun selalu suruh buat chemfriend *booklet past year* Tapi akak memang sayang giler kat teacher tu, Miss Wong. Dialah cikgu yang paling akak suka sbb dia ajar sempoi.Fasih BI & BM. Dia buat kita macam kawan je.Kalau adik2 yg masuk KMPP dapat mentor@cikgu tutor KIM@cikgu kuliah KIM Miss Wong memang best la!Korang akan fall in love la dengan Kimia lepas ni.hehe :) Next untuk Bio, tutorial so far okay, Past year booklet dia banyak soalan struktur.Essay selalunya lecturer akan suruh adik2 buat yang mana penting je. Nanti kalau dah siap chapter apa2 la untuk bio & Kimia datang lah ke office untuk check jawapan. Kadang2 tutorial session pun cikgu akan bincang past year :) Akak ni Modul 3, tak amik Fizik so tak tau la pasal Fiz. Akak amik Sains computer. Utk sem 1 science computer macam Bio je. Korang kena banyak hafal. Serious sem 1 tak susah :) Sem 2 je mcm perggghh. sbb kena belajar programming. Kita akan jadi computer programmer ye :D Akak pun blur2 sikit bile nak buat looping,selection punya pseudocode dlm C++ programming.sequence senang la. pling syok soalan PAK AMIR utk session 2012/2013 final pspm. bakal programmer usha lah soalan tu nnt.minta kat lecturer nak tgk soalan tu.kuang kuang kuang T_T

Nanti pandai2 la pilih kawan. Jangan pampered diri sampai tak study.Nanti susah di kemudian hari.Tak syok tau kalau kena marah dengan lecturer.Malu satu. satu lagi dpt result yg ciput2 je pointer.Tak ke rsa bersalah kat mak & ayah?Fikir2kanlah wahai adik2ku. Memang study tu seksa.Akak dah alami.Kita kat sini setahun je.kejap sangt.Akak pun tak percaya tamat pengajian matrikulasi 2013/2014. Rasanya baru je hbis SPM 2012 & masuk KMPP akhir bln Mei.Tiba2 dah ada kat rumah layan lappy ni ha! hehehe

Nanti masa awal2 masuk adik2 akan berjumpa dengan Mr Chalie. haha.Jaga diri baik2.Risau kot chalie ni buat love bite ke ape ke kan. Alhamdulillah la akak selamat drpd gangguan chalie ni.hoho.Waktu nak dkt hbis sem 2, musim bunga! Nanti ada la rasa feeling ala2 kat Jepun dikelilingi bunga sakura. Sekarang trend monopod. ber'selfie' lah anda dengan bunga2,best!!! :) Tengok ni :

Akak dengan roommates! :)

A3.2.1 dalam kenangan :')

Setakat ni je la yang akak boleh share. Doakan akak dapat pointer bagus untuk PSPM 2 ni. Manalah tau dapat 4 flat :D Amin. Semoga berjaya adik2! Once a KMPPIAN, always a KMPPIAN.

Yours sincerely,  

Autumn Tears

Kmppian 2013/2014

Turning Back

A photo was captured at 11.30 p.m in front of SMK Raja Perempuan Kelsom today, 7th Feb 2014.

Dear readers,

Peace be upon you :) It's new year! Good bye 2013, hello 2014 ! although it is kind of late but still I want to say happy new year, Well, please consider my condition :P I'm busy as a bee during my second semester and hey, it's quite tough okay! wuwuwu T.T oh, I am having my mid semester break for a week. fuhh :D but this Sunday, I will be going back to my niche, A3.2.1 (SRI IXORA) only at Penang Matriculation College.HAHA :D

I'm turning 19teen this year. Happy birthday to me! Allah selamatkan saya :) Alhamdulillah All praises to Allah. Saengil Chuka Hamnida! 10th February 2014, another 3 days to go! ohohho :3 okay, let's talk about today's event. I met my RPKian sisters Bella, Yeoppa, Itrah, Lena & Nawwarah. We went to school due to some matters. From the bottom of my heart, I miss my school years. I'm sincere okay -.- 

I'm grateful to meet my homeroom teacher as well as my Bahasa Melayu teacher, Puan Kheirul Maslina :) plus, my English teacher, Puan Hatiah, History teacher Puan Fauziah Kamaruddin, Add Maths teacher, Sir Shafiee and of course Puan Hilaliah my Discipline teacher. I can feel my aura as the head girl again.haha :P *I'm complimenting myself! We did talked about our life as college students. It's totally different from school. We are getting matured day by day although the ugly truth is I am still a child .HAHA :D I have no difference with a 9 years old kiddo! :3  

Thousands of thank yous to Puan Kheirul Maslina for treating us by giving a blue note! hehe *50 myr* We pampered ourselves with Kentucky Fried Chicken by using the money you gave to us :) Thank you very much teacher! Not to forget Sir Piee for the drinks! Minum Milo anda bersemangat juara! HAHA :D I'm over the moon as well as on cloud nine! heee ^_^

Although our trip is not too long, it's Friday where Muslims have Jumaat Prayers so the school dismissed at 12.10 p.m, it was fun! A lot of new things happen in school. I've been a school leaver for a year. This year is my second year. New teachers, new juniors ermm, they might not know me. It's okay. Only the veteran teachers remember all of us :) I can't believe I'm a big girl now. huaahhh =_=

Smile everyone! Selfie with Yeoppa & Lena.I'm in the middle! On the way  to KFC K.Kangsar :)

That's all. Thank you for reading. May Allah bless you, readers! :D Farewell~

Yours sincerely,

Autumn Tears